You know, I might just be dying. Maybe I will end up like those people who die in their sleep or if I’m lucky I will get to live another 2-3 years and die (while running) in my NS years. touch wood touch wood

Is it just me? My heart skips a beat or two quite often and it never fails to send a jolt to my entire body. So next time if you happen to see me jump abruptly I’m not being a retard, my heart might have just skip a beat. Sometimes I also get breathless like the air so much heavier to inhaul. Another way to describe this uneasy feeling is having a large rubber band over my chest and someone pulling from behind. Strangely, I don't have any past history of asthma or whatsoever. Maybe the reason for all this nonsense is my messed up breathing pattern. I tend to use my mouth to breathe more often than my nose. Shouldn't it be the other way round? hmm…

Actually, as I’m typing this, it feels as though the tip of my ribcage is poking on to my lungs. But you don't have worry about this one though. Because I know how I got this today. The truth is, I just woke up from my wonderful nap & realised I have been sleeping chest/face down on my bed for the past 2 hours. wahaha.. yep. that explains the sqeeshy feeling I’m getting now. :/

my mum keep telling me to get a full body check-up at a nearby polyclinic. Don’t you need to get a referent from a doctor for that? bah… so troublesome. Too lazy to get my ass all the way there not forgetting the long Q and all.. not very motivating er

so my dear friends, if I die suddenly (maybe u will even get to see me on the papers) remember to visit me at my funeral ok? If not, I shall hunt you for the rest of your remaining life waha..ha..ho... damn. not funny la. I dunwanna die. Not yet. I still have so many things left unaccomplished, so many people I want to meet and someone to love and hold dear..

Sigh..

If I’m lucky a doctor might just be reading this blog and entry right now. Perhaps he/she could give me an advice or two. Who knows man. Maybe my blog is the homepage of some Hollywood star!! hoho

Shall keep eating my apples for now.