Sometimes the case could be argued because it’s possible to find excuses such as the large sum of money or time involved but more often than not, it’s probably just me. After all the only thing that can really stop one from taking up a(sometimes crazy) hobby, joining classes or taking part in activities is from within and only within. So, like a coward who can't even face himself in the mirror and finds excuses for not wanting to, I really hate myself.

To begin with, I always wanted to learn waltz (yes the dance). Actually I’ve always had the thing for dancing but I never pursuit it.. maybe it’s because of my peers and parents. I know some might not accept it and my parents will probably not approve of it, thinking it’s for the ‘shallow people’ who don’t have a proper goal in life. That probably explains why I didn’t join dance(hip-hop) in poly as my CCA. I was also dissapointed at myself because I also feared that I wouldn’t make it past the trials and never bothered even signing up for it. Coward. I later found an old friend who's into freelance dancing, Shawn. He invited me to join him for a session. But I never did and till today haven’t found an excuse why and now I’m afraid it might be too late. 

I was also keen to learn to drum but insisted - in my mind - that I’m not up for music and will be better off keeping the money for other use (drumming lessons and sessions are very costly). I always wanted to sign up for rock climbing but my excuse for not has always been and still is because I couldn't find anyone to join it with me. I always wanted to.. and wanted to.. but I never once did. And opportunities lost are lost forever. 

is it really time or money? Or is it fear of trying something new? I do not know. All I know is I’ll stay a coward until the day I finally change.