Ps. If you’re reading this and you ever need to talk don’t hesitate to call me ok? Please Take Care!! Hope you’ll be as strong as the nickname I’ve 'granted' you since we first met. I think you know what I mean :)

I think i have a stress management problem. A terrible one. To me, being able to cope with stress is one thing but being able to channel it off, dissipate and dissolve it is another. In which case i'm awful at both & i believe close friends of mine would surely agree.. I always take things in too seriously without even knowing. I want things perfect and my fastidious nature never fails to take over. My face becomes all oily, my pimples pop, i sleep bad, i get easily irritated & basically go crazy. This isn't good for my health and neither is it good for the people i hold dear around me. Yet i painstakingly take the tow of mentally torturing myself to chase absurd targets which i often set for myself - and not always achieve; only causing a new cycle of guilt while inducing more stress to what i am already expriencing

I hate the pressure. I really really need to learn to relax but i simply don't know how. I thought hanging out with friends was the solution. It was. but only temporal. ultimately the guilt (of time wasted) will kick in and that sucks. These days i can't even play a game or watch a movie without feeling some level of guilt

sigh.... I think i take every bit of life too seriously, i tend to know too much and think too deeply into things i should not. Sometimes simplicity might really be bliss. I need to lay back, learn life isn't all about what the world surrounding us made us percieve it to be and to take things easy. But can i really afford to do that in this challenging society we live in today?

one day this will drive me to insanity. You just pray u're not around me when that happens.

after one or two more scary encounters Joon Meng shared about his outfield trip, I started feeling groggy with chills running down my spine. Then i went ‘omg how Ben how! going to tekong soon leh. dieeee’  ahaha

dammit i must sound like a girl now :X  How embarrassing. But dun worry it was a lot less dramatic then the exaggerated example I gave above ;)

haha so i was chatting with ben about something sucky and out of nowhere i said 'shit cakes'. & I think it's a pretty darn cool expression

therefore from now on, my new trademark shall be 'Shit Cake(s)'  & I hereby, declare it to be mine. anyone caught using it shall banish to the deepest depths of the earth under my wrath. MUHAHAHA!

 =D

lol just kidding. I'm bored & this entry is made just for fun. Chillos Shit Cakes

i've been late for school practically every single day ever since school begun 2 weeks ago. OMG. bad bad.  must learn how to stop lazing around in bed!! haha

i've also been dropping my phone lately. The last fall it took was about 6 feet off the ground - while i was in the toilet. haha! I'm just glad it missed the unforgiving whirlpool of the toilet bowl by mere inches. xD  everything came apart but miraculously i was still able to turn it on.. it's behaving a little weird when making calls though :X  argh. have to be more careful with my poor phone. 

Hmmm mother's day is coming..  apparently i'm in a cold war with my mum.. over a week now i think? it was due to some small quarrel we had. but she's still my mum. i've got her something.  i hope she likes it. 

School work is starting to pile up and i'm starting to feel the stress and pressure kicking in. I'll get more busy as the weeks come by. and that sucks. Because i'll have lesser time to chill with friends or even have any for myself. but oh well, it's the last semester. Shall see what i can do. huhu~