I think i have a stress management problem. A terrible one. To me, being able to cope with stress is one thing but being able to channel it off, dissipate and dissolve it is another. In which case i'm awful at both & i believe close friends of mine would surely agree.. I always take things in too seriously without even knowing. I want things perfect and my fastidious nature never fails to take over. My face becomes all oily, my pimples pop, i sleep bad, i get easily irritated & basically go crazy. This isn't good for my health and neither is it good for the people i hold dear around me. Yet i painstakingly take the tow of mentally torturing myself to chase absurd targets which i often set for myself - and not always achieve; only causing a new cycle of guilt while inducing more stress to what i am already expriencing

I hate the pressure. I really really need to learn to relax but i simply don't know how. I thought hanging out with friends was the solution. It was. but only temporal. ultimately the guilt (of time wasted) will kick in and that sucks. These days i can't even play a game or watch a movie without feeling some level of guilt

sigh.... I think i take every bit of life too seriously, i tend to know too much and think too deeply into things i should not. Sometimes simplicity might really be bliss. I need to lay back, learn life isn't all about what the world surrounding us made us percieve it to be and to take things easy. But can i really afford to do that in this challenging society we live in today?

one day this will drive me to insanity. You just pray u're not around me when that happens.