As Dao Jun puts, he has no idea how or why my 2009 can be so 'eventful'. It really was, i had so much (notice i didn't use many) coming down on me, without even moment's break in between. I'm tired, my mind's all fizzy :| even as the world transcended into the new year i was still in a blur.. but as i caught up, here's what i got to say for yesteryear & what there is for me in twentyten, because Once is enough!

I wish I could be more apathetic

instead of always being numb with thoughts and feelings.

My past is but a mystery and the present at best, a misty shade at times of question

it's about being in a hiatus of thought, knowing something but nothing.

Sometimes you wish you knew and sometimes you resist

the harsh eventuality of hurting yourself in the end because you want not on the other

and it pains how they might blind you out without a moment's thought in comprehension

there are simply no guidebooks on the steps to take and certainly no straight answers

only as vaguely as they see..

But I am wiser now

I shall not pave paths but step ahead with only what comes around.