August 9, 2014
Alternate Reality

I still feel hurt, I still think of her, and I still think of the wasted opportunities.

How things could've been so different, so enjoyable.. things between us could be so close to perfect.

And at other times I just think it's all a joke, that on the surface I seemed like the impatient one, but when I think hard about it, it is not me who is impatient, I have been patient the whole time.. while she kept pressing for more. the other kind of more, on the big future, the big picture. I simply do not have enough to substantiate an answer for her, I could not verbalise a reply which she seeks so badly when I do not have even the most basic connection to share with her. it's like asking to reach for the skies when we don't even have a plane. To swim without the sea. u just need to have something first. that something was clearly missing, and the missing link, that provision was not mine to give, but her's to extend. I done my part, we were fine. but she backed out. whatever happened, I will never know.. I never know anything.

who given up on who really?

We both tried so hard, but for the both of us, that's just not enough.

fuck expectations. It's all bad timing. I'd like to think of it that way. She's not ready (at all) and I am not ready (word.)

either way, I can't stop myself from thinking if only things were different. it keeps playing in my head.

such a love-hate thing. as with my relationship with Europe now..

Sigh.. I really need something to help me forget, since it seems that's the only way now.. it's over.. just still can't accept that yet :'(












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