January 28, 2009
finding that purpose finding that purpose. one of my friend told me not too long ago that she found blogging.. strange.. contradictary.. why write personal feelings down for the world to see she said. Then there's the personal blog.. where one write for their own eyes only.. but i can never quite get myself to do that.. becos i feel thats like keeping a diary... and i find it.... well, perhaps girly? in any case if i really HAVE to write a personal diary i'll much prefer the traditional hardcopy, solid leather dairy thing over a blog. so you might ask, whats the bloody point i'm trying to get to? You see, things have been running in my head for days now.. the cny period has slowed my life down to the right motion - after weeks after weeks of beating (which i have now resumed to) - During the short two days, i had plenty of time to think.. and i realised (as for those who have me on ur facebook) that i am not happy with my current life at all.. but of all things.. i'm most dissapointed at myself.. for many reasons.. which i cannot say.. do u see where i'm getting to now? i feel like shouting out. yet i cant.. because if i do.. everyone will know my story and the little mystery will be lost.. and if i do share my story.. people might get hurt if they ever read it and i know they do, which makes it even more scary will it really help to write ur thoughts down to urself? if u're a keeper of a diary.. pls enlighten me... and then maybe, maybe i'll visit a old book shop to get myself a leather crusted diary.. in any case, I know there are ppl out there that still care. Thank You. Don't worry it's actually not life threatening. i'm not about to go sucidal.. oh and for those ppl that are ever so curious, no, it's no about love.. i dun brood over that.. if it doesn't work it doesn't. It's something else.. maybe one day you'll know.. Wishing all a Happy CNY! Wishing all a Happy CNY! *coughs coughs*
January 22, 2009
my worse new year yet. my worst new year yet. 4 projects. none completed. 3 presentations. none ready. 2 test. none prepared. 1 week. to complete them all. what chinese new year? January 20, 2009
i don't know what i want just watched the movie, Vicky Cristina Barcelona as a break for my extremely long and tiresome weekend spent on projects. The movie is about love triangle or rather love rectangle. And how one may realise she might just be bisexual (lol yea. i know) and how much so the Americans are open to it as well as how forgiving friends are (bet u must feel like watching this movie now). most of all however, what i got out of this firm was that things in life isn't always about what you wanted but what you love. In the movie it was portrait as how Vicky's betrothed is all about what she always hankered for.. what she always wanted.. a husband with a bright future and a pleasant but predictable life but she realised after a one night love affair with a Spaniard that she was about to make the gravest mistake of her life. This sounds all confusing because want supersedes need in every way but you see, love, love is more than just the mere wants. It is not something you can construe with tangible yearnings like for Vicky's case a stable husband and a secured future. In any case, now that i've watched the movie, i begin questioning myself. Not in love, but what have i been doing up till now. As it goes, it's not about what you want but what you love. Am I studying because i want to get into a local university or is it because i love studying? & what is it that i love anyway? January 16, 2009
I saw an angel in the train today I saw an angel in the train today| January 14, 2009
gordon kicks ass Friday - 9th Jan ape about upon realising that i'll be having 4 tests in 2 days Saturday - 10th Jan brood over whats coming & the sulky weather didn't help Sunday - 11th Jan fell sick. Monday - 12th Jan exhausted and dying Tuesday - 13th Jan Dead Wednesday - 14th Jan Came back to life becos i kicked ass in all the 4 tests ;) January 6, 2009
euthanasia. what?! Euthanasia. What?! Can't believe i have to do a presentation on it for my business communication project. I read the news - well i try to. and when i do i usually read everything from politics to sports but very little on health, medical sciences and certainly not anything to do with deaths like euthanasia. call me old fashion, but topics such as these do not interest me. Plus, euthansia in particular is such a controverse topic.. i don't suppose there will be a conclusion to it even in the next millennium. The presentation which is in two weeks time will take the form of a debate. i was chosen (by drawing of lots) to be in the team that is in support of euthanasia!! oh man!! it's not like i have a strong stand against it, i believe there's no real right or wrong.. however if u were to ask me now, i suppose i'm more inclined to say i'm against it ..and probably will always be it's going to be really tough trying to bluff my way through a debate where i have opposing view to my own side. sheeshes. what's ur take on euthanasia? - anyway, something totally of another page, i realised that i am as guilty a person of prejudice as i am a victim of it. I noticed that sometimes i disparage about people i barely know behind their back, making judgement from only what i see and not feel. I think i should give them a chance to redeem themselves.. haha i know.. still sound like an asshole but arghz you know, some people you just hate so much!! for whatever reason there is to be.. at least i'm opening myself up for newer prespective! :S January 5, 2009
new year resolution? New Year Resolution
HO. these sounds like an awful lot to me January 3, 2009
happpy new year 2009 HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008
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