| December 23, 2009
my gratuitous affection..  The time has stuck I gave my heart there was never enough. It was never any different reality is tough I don't think I botched, I was never given a chance.. Because chances are like privileges and time like gold Moments might be treasured, only never collected until there was no more Anyone who have heard would believe my stories A tale of fiction but one so real How could she not know? When fairy tales strike harder? ..The only problem about my problem is that everything was real.. I can still remember all the little things she used to tell me, like the story of how she 'snatched' an elder sister in her primary school or how she'll stand by her stairway and wait for her mum to come up safely before she heads to sleep. The ones that people don't remember and the ones I fought so hard to forget.. or the things I did and am still willing to do, but sadly completely heedless and redundant by her it's not made any easier when I am always able to find some affinity with her to my surroundings, what people say or the places I go. but more so than everything else, is the fact that she seems indubiously unaffected through everything that has happened or the fact that she'll never read this only pains me more yet I know no one can blame her but myself for falling silly over her. and for that very reason i feel ludicrously stupid.. but as often as I am not, I can't help but think this is fallacy. I feel like Tom in 500 days of summer. Even more like Jacob in Twilight; we were never together. Cheated is too strong a word, i think maybe i am just.. hurt. December 17, 2009
Strange but Wonderful World  Felt so silly yesterday when I fell asleep and missed my stop on my bus home. It was funny because i actually shoke myself up about a stop or two before the one i needed to get off. i should have stayed up but instead chose to fall back asleep hahaha. how smart of me. Woke up and realised i was at Toapayoh central.. that aside, isn't it amazing how our body work? Like the natural body alarm that keeps us on time for work or school every morning and how we can seemingly sleep on our trains and buses but always wake up just on time to get off? Anyway, since i was in central i decided to go get the Anti-frizzzz Serum Puay Ching recommended for my hair. I hope it's good. Because you can never actually make a decision when you're at the store. The marketing effort on such products, I find, often incredibly plausible (sense my sarcasm?) Haha, the product description on some might even provide you with a good laugh - especially those foreign products where english isn't the prevalent language practiced. As an example here's what the back of the Anti-frizz Serum I got says, "nourishes, calms, smooths, silky, manageable results ...provides nutrition and protection for an intense smoothing. Your hair is nourished from root to tip and protected from the effects of humid and dry condition, such as frizz and puffiness. Your hair is silky and manageable." Hahaha just look at the number of positive locution used and the promise! and this is already considered one of the more subdued ones i assure you. I guess this is why we shouldn't trust marketers x) Speaking of which do you know Horoscopes work with the same theory beneath? only with a twist. I like to call it the theory of cogitative matching. Basically it entails speculation where writers write in random or possibly, in chronologic order and readers simply try to find connections and relevance on the basis of their daily lives. That's why sometimes you really find no link in what's written but when something eventually does, it hits you. It's a simple theory but it works, so it keeps people reading. Especially those females who never fail to enjoy fantasizing or contemplating on a little something about what might happen later in their day - like meeting their prince charming. haha. Come on ladies, don't deny! ;) I for one, remain skeptical about Horoscope reading and only do so when i slumber upon it in the papers or on some magazines i happen to read. After all, some of them can be really interesting can autumn possibly be over before you know it? If so, I silently hope my sweet winter comes soon. Because time is short..
December 15, 2009
merry merry  Mum hanged Christmas socks on the door!! That's like the first ever christmas deco we had in ages.. still missing a tree.. but as it is, i'm happy with the socks. I'll make do with what little christmas atmosphere there is at home. I've been rather tempted to get one of those mini christmas tree for my table but looking at the current state of my table i guess not. haha there's like a Still so many things to do before New Year..
December 14, 2009
#)$*!&#(%^@!  Don't just look at the heart but the big black cloud towering above it. like one wasn't enough shit just keeps piling up on me. First I fell for a girl probably Then I got into possibly the worst place to be attached to in my entire cohort. Got into some trouble and had to fork out $300 for it. Lost my phone. Then felt sick twice in a week. And today I accidentally got my friend's car damage as I was reversing the vehicle out of a tight carpark. Dented the body work and got the bumper slightly cracked.. It’s going to cost me about $500 or more to get them repaired. As if all that isn’t unbelievable enough, the story goes that I actually drove the car out to get a new phone to replace the one I LOST. Queued 2 hours for it only to realise that there was NO STOCK for the phone I wanted.. So essentially it was ALL for nothing.. driving the car out.. going to the shop... If I haven’t went nothing would have happened. Then on that very night, the key to the same car slipped from my hand and dropped into a fucking drain. I had to dig it up; and the nearest toilet was miles away. I also realised I probably have some issue with my heart that’s going to ruin my chances of getting into command school in NS. The NS medical appointment is coming soon and I don’t know whether I should declare my condition and blow my chances or not at all.. Seriously, my list will really just go on and on. Fuck Karma. I haven’t even done anything bad lately. And I still have work tomorrow.. I've got nothing to say December 8, 2009
To be bummed-out  maybe it is more than just a mere tapmaybe a few taps can become one big bump ears covered eyes shut tight as an augur blitz goes by you know it’s there you just don’t really see it only the trembling cognizance. now there is the cold beneath your feat. a strange serenity runs along but as you slowly regain your senses you find that restraining pull driven by the silent havoc an uneasy throb. now shields are held as helmets are worn and weapons drawn a valour held back no ardent to shine ..only one thing besides time can help. December 7, 2009
Summing it up  uhuh. It's not like i have a choice. Maybe the people are fine but the job. oh the job and place.. I don't want it. I wouldn't even want it to appear on my resume, cause it's not even of the slightest relevance to what i intend or hope to pursue, at the very least, i think i'm sure of that. Guess that pretty much sums up my time at my place of attachment. 3rd week, 9 more to go. I really need to pull through.. lots of things are happening around me besides work and i need time to catch my breathe. At least one thing i know now is that i'll never get a full time desk job. And i really hope i wouldn't be posting the same thing 5 years down the road when i really start working. That'll be major trouble =x December 1, 2009
Tadaah I finally got my vesty.   and now i can finally (: |
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