| February 26, 2010
Us  A step forth and another step foe knowing and no and just like that you devote me so There is no denying electric correlation do exist do you not feel it? the suspended persuasion to be held close.. Why do I hamper myself with my own perplexity? Why do you arrest your emotions? Will it be fair to our soul? When you and I both know..
February 23, 2010
The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere 'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly But I'll miss your arms around me I'd send a postcard to you, dear 'Cause I wish you were here I'll watch the night turn light-blue But it's not the same without you Because it takes two to whisper quietly The silence isn't so bad 'Til I look at my hands and feel sad 'Cause the spaces between my fingers Are right where yours fit perfectly I'll find repose in new ways Though I haven't slept in two days 'Cause cold nostalgia Chills me to the bone But drenched in vanilla twilight I'll sit on the front porch all night Waist-deep in thought because When I think of you I don't feel so alone I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone As many times as I blink I'll think of you tonight I'll think of you tonight When violet eyes get brighter And heavy wings grow lighter I'll taste the sky and feel alive again And I'll forget the world that I knew But I swear I won't forget you Oh, if my voice could reach Back through the past I'd whisper in your ear Oh darling, I wish you were here February 22, 2010
Love is but the discovery of ourselves in other, and the delight in the recognition. - Alexander Smith Beautiful. February 17, 2010
A crack in the system I knew this day would come. Just me sitting on the chair. Staring nowhere and wondering 'now what?'. One prominent journey of my life has just ended last Friday. It was my last day of my internship at Aviva which also means i am now a poly graduate. I knew then, that i'd feel lost this week and lost i am indeed! I've got so many things to get settled, i don't know where to begin. What was once 'no time at all' has now become, 'so much time that i'm now lost'. I don't like this stucky feeling, lazing around completely in waste just trying to figure what is priority. And since time is all you have in the world, you really have the tendency to get lazy and push things off. Maybe having no time at all was better, because then, making a decision on what do would have been a whole lot easier.. Now that it's overflowing you're really just like 'now what?' Pls tell me it's not just me, haha i guess thats what the super rich are experiencing; not with time but with their money. they have so much of it, they end up dying without spending a cent because they couldn't decide what to do with it when they were still breathing. lmao. moving on, i saw a facebook quiz today, the title of the quiz went, "What are you addicted to" and i have reasons to believe that this might sound like something bad to most at first. But actually if you really thought about it, it seems more like a test to see if you had a damn life. And it was exactly then that i realised i didn't exactly have one - i could only fill three of the five compulsory boxes. And my three weren't even that good to begin with.. listening to music, watching movies and tumblr. not even a single healthy activity like perhaps going on a hike, cycling... actually in my case even the taboo gaming isn't all that bad a choice. You see, the thing is thanks to the education system here in SG and what our society is becoming (think the endless competition and stress) I've essentially become a completely boring person. Yup. I mean geez I used to do insane 3am night cycling all the time - and that's just one of many. Through the years, I've basically forgot what it was like to just have fun and forget about everything else. I am admitting it now - that not once in my 3 years since the Os have i not game for more than 2 hours without a drop of guilt. The aftermath of gaming is always something along the lines of 'i could have better spent my time doing something more useful' when all it used to be then was, 'oh that was fucking awesome, i'm so going to continue playing' And just as i want to start afresh, clear my shelves, throw every book away,, and flush all that nonsensical crap off my head, I can't. Why? because there's a Uni application i need to get done - and even that has a deadline. I am really tired and beginning to wonder if there will ever really be any break from anything in a life living in a bursting cityscape. I guess that's why I (or people) procrastinate; trying to push away what i can for as long as i can. If you asked me now if i had any regrets being in the last class and being probably one of the most badass student back in my secondary school days, my answer is great Big No.. not one bit. To do wild things is to be free. So what if i have a high GPA? i could bet i had more genuine smiles in a single day than the 3 years of my poly life combined. But that's still not the saddest thing. The sad thing is that once you're in it, you're pretty much stuck in it. You want to be rich? You want to be comfortable in life? Well, then you better have a darn certificate, it's the key to open all the doors. & how do you get the certificate? you'll need a degree.. and to get a degree?? you'll need to work your ass for it. Ironies of life? tell me about it. This is just the beginning. February 9, 2010
I could feel the warmth in my dreams  don't you just hate it when you're forced to wake up from a lovely dream? My best damn dreams are always broken to the ringing of my alarm clock. & it just HAD to happen again this morning.. I spent the entire journey on my bus to work just trying to recall and piece together the story in my dream. sounds silly I know, but it's not everyday that people have nice sweet dreams, and certainly not me.. so I was really hoping to remember even if was just a thing or two.. anything. in the end I felt quite miserable because all til noon I still couldn't piece everything together; at least nothing from the start.. but here's what i can muster. & I'm penning it down here before I really forget for real.. forgive me if it's really jaggy. I AM WRITING MY THOUGHTS DOWN STRAIGHT FROM MY HEAD. YOU'VE BEEN DULY WARNED. for some reasons, things haven't been working out with me and this gal. - the important part goes to the center of the story here. which i sadly cannot remember - then the setting swings to the outside of a beautiful stadium. - no idea why on earth I was at a stadium - It was a lovely snowy evening, We were standing by the entrance. Just the two of us, the stadium was completely deserted, it was quiet, and we could feel the silent in our ears.. but it also felt like we had the world. We were the only ones there except for the snow covered benches and the struggling grow from the heavily condensed london lamp posts that lined the stadium. But she and I.. We just stood there by our own, although next to one another.. but not at each other.. We stood looking at the road ahead. as if we dared not look into each other .. ..her dad was coming to pick her.. it was snowing; a nice steady flow; but we were silent with our surrounding.. I remembered having a frown on my face. she had teary eyes.. - I really can't remember the exact events preceding this. I really want to remember.. I suggest you read on. i'm sure you'll find your own.. perhaps using your own imagination - eventually her dad arrived .. & I slithered away.. slowly fading into the drowning snow ... .. just as I was walking somewhere pass the side of the large big stadium.... A hug from behind.. I was so busy in thought I couldn't even hear her heavy thudding footstep on the thick white snow. all I could feel was the warmth from behind.. and that was the only thing that matter.. then in all the softness in the world, I heard her whispered into my ear.. "I love you" & I gently shut my eyes and lean my head against her soft blushed hair.... * and.. my alarm went off * - I think I meant to say "promise me you'll never leave me again" - BUT I REALLY CAN'T REMEMBER.. How I wished time just froze then!! T-T I could just die in that moment a happy man.. i swear. I even put my alarm clock on snooze because i wanted so badly to get back into my dream but the additional 10 minutes and massive toss and turn simply wasn't enough. And yes. i ended up late for work. FML February 6, 2010
 (Y) migration seems to be successful. 'cept for the fact that some of my older posts are now completely, and strangely, very blue. haha, well at least it goes with my blog url, greencyanBLUE. Anyway, some of you folks have been telling me to get my blog skin changed since a year ago. I think the main complain was that the old font was too small (seriously you people are just getting old!) and the occasional, "eh! i think this blog skin is too gay for you". lol.. well, after a year long wait, i finally decided to nip myself in the butt. So here it is!! It should also load faster now because i used a better compression for the photos and opted to display only 20 past post on a single page. Yupp! I'm also considering to be more open with photos content wise.. i want to be more bold (and i said bold not self-obsessed) so i guess you can look forward to more pictures in the near future. and rest assured because i shall still continue writing my poems, i always enjoyed that. Now we only have to pray that there will be less emo ones and more happy ones to come. hah! Alrighty. I hope you like the new look as much as i do (: Do leave a comment! ps. nope it's not your eyes playing tricks on you. the banner on the top changes every time you enter. Currently there are ten, all of which are my favourite quotes - some by famous poets and some my own. I will include more soon so keep checking back in! ;D February 5, 2010
uhuh. “Don't tell me who I am; because unless I write all my thoughts down on a piece of paper and hand it to you, you don't even know half my life.” i like this. |
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