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my gratuitous affection..
Wednesday, December 23, 2009 @ 12:15 AM
 The time has stuck I gave my heart there was never enough. It was never any different reality is tough I don't think I botched, I was never given a chance.. Because chances are like privileges and time like gold Moments might be treasured, only never collected until there was no more Anyone who have heard would believe my stories A tale of fiction but one so real How could she not know? When fairy tales strike harder? ..The only problem about my problem is that everything was real.. I can still remember all the little things she used to tell me, like the story of how she 'snatched' an elder sister in her primary school or how she'll stand by her stairway and wait for her mum to come up safely before she heads to sleep. The ones that people don't remember and the ones I fought so hard to forget.. or the things I did and am still willing to do, but sadly completely heedless and redundant by her it's not made any easier when I am always able to find some affinity with her to my surroundings, what people say or the places I go. but more so than everything else, is the fact that she seems indubiously unaffected through everything that has happened or the fact that she'll never read this only pains me more yet I know no one can blame her but myself for falling silly over her. and for that very reason i feel ludicrously stupid.. but as often as I am not, I can't help but think this is fallacy. I feel like Tom in 500 days of summer. Even more like Jacob in Twilight; we were never together. Cheated is too strong a word, i think maybe i am just.. hurt. Strange but Wonderful World
Thursday, December 17, 2009 @ 11:38 PM
 Felt so silly yesterday when I fell asleep and missed my stop on my bus home. It was funny because i actually shoke myself up about a stop or two before the one i needed to get off. i should have stayed up but instead chose to fall back asleep hahaha. how smart of me. Woke up and realised i was at Toapayoh central.. that aside, isn't it amazing how our body work? Like the natural body alarm that keeps us on time for work or school every morning and how we can seemingly sleep on our trains and buses but always wake up just on time to get off? Anyway, since i was in central i decided to go get the Anti-frizzzz Serum Puay Ching recommended for my hair. I hope it's good. Because you can never actually make a decision when you're at the store. The marketing effort on such products, I find, often incredibly plausible (sense my sarcasm?) Haha, the product description on some might even provide you with a good laugh - especially those foreign products where english isn't the prevalent language practiced. As an example here's what the back of the Anti-frizz Serum I got says, "nourishes, calms, smooths, silky, manageable results ...provides nutrition and protection for an intense smoothing. Your hair is nourished from root to tip and protected from the effects of humid and dry condition, such as frizz and puffiness. Your hair is silky and manageable." Hahaha just look at the number of positive locution used and the promise! and this is already considered one of the more subdued ones i assure you. I guess this is why we shouldn't trust marketers x) Speaking of which do you know Horoscopes work with the same theory beneath? only with a twist. I like to call it the theory of cogitative matching. Basically it entails speculation where writers write in random or possibly, in chronologic order and readers simply try to find connections and relevance on the basis of their daily lives. That's why sometimes you really find no link in what's written but when something eventually does, it hits you. It's a simple theory but it works, so it keeps people reading. Especially those females who never fail to enjoy fantasizing or contemplating on a little something about what might happen later in their day - like meeting their prince charming. haha. Come on ladies, don't deny! ;) I for one, remain skeptical about Horoscope reading and only do so when i slumber upon it in the papers or on some magazines i happen to read. After all, some of them can be really interesting can autumn possibly be over before you know it? If so, I silently hope my sweet winter comes soon. Because time is short.. merry merry
Tuesday, December 15, 2009 @ 9:00 PM
 Mum hanged Christmas socks on the door!! That's like the first ever christmas deco we had in ages.. still missing a tree.. but as it is, i'm happy with the socks. I'll make do with what little christmas atmosphere there is at home. I've been rather tempted to get one of those mini christmas tree for my table but looking at the current state of my table i guess not. haha there's like a Still so many things to do before New Year.. #)$*!&#(%^@!
Monday, December 14, 2009 @ 1:07 AM
 Don't just look at the heart but the big black cloud towering above it. like one wasn't enough shit just keeps piling up on me. First I fell for a girl probably Then I got into possibly the worst place to be attached to in my entire cohort. Got into some trouble and had to fork out $300 for it. Lost my phone. Then felt sick twice in a week. And today I accidentally got my friend's car damage as I was reversing the vehicle out of a tight carpark. Dented the body work and got the bumper slightly cracked.. It’s going to cost me about $500 or more to get them repaired. As if all that isn’t unbelievable enough, the story goes that I actually drove the car out to get a new phone to replace the one I LOST. Queued 2 hours for it only to realise that there was NO STOCK for the phone I wanted.. So essentially it was ALL for nothing.. driving the car out.. going to the shop... If I haven’t went nothing would have happened. Then on that very night, the key to the same car slipped from my hand and dropped into a fucking drain. I had to dig it up; and the nearest toilet was miles away. I also realised I probably have some issue with my heart that’s going to ruin my chances of getting into command school in NS. The NS medical appointment is coming soon and I don’t know whether I should declare my condition and blow my chances or not at all.. Seriously, my list will really just go on and on. Fuck Karma. I haven’t even done anything bad lately. And I still have work tomorrow.. I've got nothing to say To be bummed-out
Tuesday, December 8, 2009 @ 11:33 PM
 maybe it is more than just a mere tapmaybe a few taps can become one big bump ears covered eyes shut tight as an augur blitz goes by you know it’s there you just don’t really see it only the trembling cognizance. now there is the cold beneath your feat. a strange serenity runs along but as you slowly regain your senses you find that restraining pull driven by the silent havoc an uneasy throb. now shields are held as helmets are worn and weapons drawn a valour held back no ardent to shine ..only one thing besides time can help. Summing it up
Monday, December 7, 2009 @ 9:55 PM
 uhuh. It's not like i have a choice. Maybe the people are fine but the job. oh the job and place.. I don't want it. I wouldn't even want it to appear on my resume, cause it's not even of the slightest relevance to what i intend or hope to pursue, at the very least, i think i'm sure of that. Guess that pretty much sums up my time at my place of attachment. 3rd week, 9 more to go. I really need to pull through.. lots of things are happening around me besides work and i need time to catch my breathe. At least one thing i know now is that i'll never get a full time desk job. And i really hope i wouldn't be posting the same thing 5 years down the road when i really start working. That'll be major trouble =x Tadaah I finally got my vesty.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009 @ 10:22 PM
  and now i can finally (: Life now
Monday, November 30, 2009 @ 10:02 PM
 ^yup that can only be me & how i look now.. what a weekend. drove til 4am on Thursday, til 5 am on Friday and til 6am on Saturday. Crazy huh! Along with something major that happened on Thursday, but due to some circumstances I cannot share here.. and just two days later on Saturday, I lost my phone in the most dramatic way possible following by my very fruitless search for it. Surprisingly it didn't roll off the vehicle where I took off but some distance later when I was already on the road. We actually heard a noise while we were cruising and thought it was probably a tree branch that had fallen off - at least it sounded like one. But we kinda concluded that the sound we heard was my poor phone rolling off the roof and falling onto the boot before finally hitting the ground ..& probably smashed to pumpkins after all the cars that have run over it. I was hopeful (and probably silly) that I could still savage the SIM card from the possibly very smashed up phone – I mean my contacts are precious! All of you are! So with that, I parked by a nearby carpark where I remembered where the noise of the 'fallen branch' was heard and did a 1km hike trying to find it. Yes. I braved a kilometer march at the center divider of a high speed dual carriageway. Balancing on what ground there is - with big protruding plants & a huge drain on one side and speeding cars on the other – nearly died =\ And..... *drums roll* to no avail. I found nothing short of some leaves and litter on the road. There was certainly nothing that looked ruined or destroyed less say anything black and shiny. It was a horrific experience.. then again I convinced myself that it was something that would have happened sooner or later anyway. I was already quite amazed; I never actually lost a phone before. not in the 19 years of my life!! Considering the 3 phones my brother has already lost at that point of his life. I think mine’s quite an achievement. Aha. Oh come on, I’m sure you’ve lost a phone or two yourself no? but oh well, it's nowhere like an achievement. Now I lost all my contacts, some great pictures I took and have to burn a hole in my pocket to get a new phone. FML? Yeah.. definitely. To end my entry: - Sudden urge to listen to Anberlin but realised my collection of their songs are in my lappy and i'm using the desktop. bahhh too lazy to switch! - Sometimes I still think of her. I hate that I do. But I really can’t help it. It happens. - Work sucks. Literally staring at a damn box for 8 hours. Everyone in the office gets a damn LCD and all I get is an enormous CRT that flickers. Don't get me started on the blocked sites and me being the only intern there. Previously they had six interns. freakin' SIX. now I’m like a sad loner seating on a lonesome desk with nothing but a big fat monitor. I really need to stock up on my oreos and pringles. Gonna eat my stress and boredom away. Ps.. please msg me ur number people!! And don’t forget to leave ur name in ur sms too or I wouldn’t know who u are! Haha. Thanks! :)(: i'm tired...
Thursday, November 19, 2009 @ 3:35 PM
yea.. & I'm tired too for those days that felt like a mistake
@ 12:30 PM
two weeks ago i did something i probably shouldn't have. and now i feel insanely stupid like i shot myself on my own foot. unfortunately i realised too late I'm not sure if things will be the same again and i am afraid. I don't know what more can i say. maybe i had too much confidence, or simply too much held inside but saying all that now is useless, it's beyond my control.. I guess i'm just not good when it comes to feelings. shaking the bottle and opening it all up was a careless mistake but it was also a genuine mistake; one i wouldn't mind making it would have been cool if she felt the same but the regret now is pretty obvious i can only hope she understands that i've never done something like this before and i cannot describe how awful i feel right now all i'm looking for is some form of closure.. something only she can give and not one i can find and hopefully everything will be back to normal So if you're reading this and you even have the tiniest feeling that you need to tell me something, please talk to me.. Because I can't. I don't want to exasperate the matter more so than I already did
sylia plath
Tuesday, November 17, 2009 @ 3:09 PM
 All ready for Work
Monday, November 9, 2009 @ 12:26 AM
 This is what I'd wear if I had to dress formally. Ok, maybe not the last one; unless there’s such a thing as a 'dress down day' at office. that’d be cool x) Sadly though I’m not getting any one of them.. cause I’ve already done my formal wear shopping! haha. Fair enough, the shirts I got might not exactly be like the ‘oh-so-sexy’ ones above but they're awesome too :) Got them at a Bang at the Great Robinsons Sale at the Expo. the two shirts i got are both Hardy Amies contemporary fit - so at the very least I know I'd look young in them. haha! I also found the idea pair of business shoes I always had in mind while I was there!! :DDD I’ve been looking for one with a nice silver bucket for a really long time.. and seemingly the only ones I managed to find are like wayyy beyond my league.. read: $600-$3000++ seriously, I must have expensive taste or something. aha so I'm plenty satisfied when I finally found one that's like what, 1/9999 that price? LOL see, yhihhuua, you never know what you can find in a BIG BIG SALES like the Great Robinsons Sale. They’re not just for housewives kay!! Teehee. but ok fine, I have to admit I was reluctant when mom first suggested a trip down X) So I’ve got my shirts and shoes. Only thing left are some nice fitting pants and maybe a tie or two? Time really flies.. Attachment is just around the corner. I still got no clue as to where I’ll be attached to though. but hmmm.. who cares! better be ready than not right! haha. I can only hope I don’t end up with one whose office is miles away from home.. that would really be shitty =/  The Dr. Martens Urban Darren Strapped Shoe what I've been up to all day
Saturday, November 7, 2009 @ 6:44 PM
laze in bed. youtube. tumblr. eat. laze in bed again. tumblr. eat. youtube  I want to think that I can don't care anymore Vampire Weekend
Friday, November 6, 2009 @ 3:58 PM
performing live in the streets of Paris :DRubik Life
@ 3:58 PM
 wouldn't it be nice if all the sides were of the same colour?How I’d look like now? Try picturing yourself drawing a smiley. Put two dots at the top for the eyes, then draw the longest straight-line below it. That’s how I’d look like. here’s some help:  Waking up every morning has become a major pain in the ass lately. It usual takes two rings of the alarm clock to get me up. Now it takes 2 rings from two different alarm clocks plus 3 snooze of 10mins intervals on one of them together with my mum’s nagging just to get up. I don’t want to start blaming the weather. I love the weather. This is the only time of the year where you can wake up every morning and lie to yourself that you’re in someplace else but sunny Singapore. It’s actually more of the shit that I’m waking up to every morning that’s making me laze. Am I the only one? I noticed it’s always about the time you need to wake up that you really start to enjoy your sleep.
'How very true' I thought to myself as I waited for my bus. It’s a nice shirt, but I like it more now that I can relate to it.
the november feeling
Tuesday, November 3, 2009 @ 7:38 PM
 It's been raining. Everyone seems to be talking about it on twitter, facebook and whatever medium there is to share. Most of them seem to like it, i do too, and I'd like to call it the november feeling.. where the weather starts to change to a sweet winter-like cool, as december comes and as Christmas draws closer. Of course i believe we all have the occasional complain of 'oh why must it rain today! we are going to the beach!' or something along that line, but then again we all know that deep inside we love the rain. Cozying up at home and just staring out the window, well, at least i know I do. haha. I also especially like those drizzle that are so little you don't really feel a thing even when it touches your skin.. the start of november is also about the time i get all excited about Christmas - my favourite holiday! Did i mention that i always wanted a Christmas tree? Sadly dad's too traditional and chinesy to be up for it. In fact, my family never really celebrates Christmas. Chinese New Year is the ‘in thing’ for my folks. haha i think i'm more of a thanksgiving guy? That said though, i really don't remember what i did last year! Too many things happened in the whole of this year for me to recall even a thing about last Christmas.. i can only hope this year's would be special, magical, or whatever they call it.. Cos i'm telling you i'm really looking forward to it. and then there's new year too :) ahh.. the november feeling.. don't you just love it ? Ps. oh, not forgetting all the end of year SALES that's going to start rolling in ;) I really like songs with meaningful lyrics Twins
Thursday, October 29, 2009 @ 12:38 AM
 ahahaha. Cute. ^^And she said it.
Thursday, October 22, 2009 @ 11:53 PM
 "There's nothing interesting about looking perfect" - Emma Watson Men are harmless creatures
Wednesday, October 21, 2009 @ 12:48 AM
 Kay I’ve got two stories today. The first one cannot be explained even by Murphy’s Law. While the second is about how paranoid some women can be Ok the first one is titled OMFGAWDISH. I waited 20 freakin' mins for my bus this morning! Ended up late for school and I had not one but TWO lecturers questioning about my absence :/ now I know you’re going to go 'WHUUT?! only 20 mins?!' But NOOO. You’re wrong. You see, there are 9 buses at my usual bus stop. 3 takes me to the interchange which is where I go every morning. 3 out of 9 means of every 3 buses that arrives there’s a 1 in 3 chance of it being a bus which I could take. But on this strange strange morning, NEITHER of all the 99999 and 99 buses that arrived ARE ONE!! To my shock and horror many of the buses came by at least twice, some even came thrice!! Not to mention how hot and dusty it was. Mind you, the bus stop is along a 12 lane expressway. I swear I could kill at the HEAT of the moment. The people around me were just lucky I had my strawberry bun and music to keep me distracted .. The second incident happened on the train while I was making my way home. This one’s slightly more interesting.. So there was this girl, she was pretty hawt, I fell for her, and asked her for her number. It was amazing. HAHAHA nahh I was just making fun of you. no but really, there was this girl, she was ok. So naturally I stole some glances over the course of my journey. I mean come on, I’m a guy, and practically every other guy in the cabin was. But that’s not the point, the thing is she probably knew. Then my stop at Toa Payoh eventually came, apparently it was her stop too. She got off first so I ended up not far behind her. Following the crowd like everyone else, we hopped on the escalator. That’s when she turned back and what I saw next was a face that literally screamed "OMG! A FREAKING STALKER! :OOO" -.- I was like “OH COME ON!! GIVE ME A BREAK!” Sad for her and more unfortunate for me, the escalator was packed, so no quick escape for neither of us.. but as soon as we were on leveled ground, I hasten by pace and got ahead of her; coolly trying my best to give off a “OH PLEASE LADY, I’M NO STALKER, AND YOU AIN’T THAT GREAT EITHER SO PLEASE SAVE YOURSELF SOME PITY. AND ONE MORE THING, YOU’RE NOT THE ONLY ONE THAT STAYS IN TOA PAYOH UH.” So ya. Moral of the story is, if you’re hawt. Please expect guys to look at you. That’s how the world works. I’m sorry to say but if you’re blessed with a strikingly good body or a gorgeous face, that’s your curse. That said, it doesn’t mean every one of us who does look at you is a lowly immodest lady eating stalker. So if you going to be paranoiac, wear a mask or make yourself ugly. Don’t complain or give people weird stares.. you’re simply wasting your attractiveness away. And finally, for the dear lady I saw earlier today, well, if I recalled, u were stealing glances at me too. So does that make you a stalker too? LMAO my dear readers. I’m writing this because this isn’t the first time I had an experience like this. I also believe I’m writing on behalf of the thousands of innocent guys out there who have shared the same traumatic experience of being the bad guy in a situation gone wrong. Thank you for your time. I know you’re there
Monday, October 19, 2009 @ 11:47 PM
I decided to write this little something 'for' Tom Hanson of 500 days of summer. Because Summer's a bitch, and life's full of ditch. Trust me, we all seen the fair share of their uglier side. This is also for the people who have given all they have with burning ardor but never quite find themselves being reciprocated by the seemingly greater other..I know you’re there It’s only a matter of when and where They say it’s unpredictable and we're in for surprises It's true. Don’t we all find the strange connection we so often look for at the most unexpected places? Why do people drown in despair when it should be a delight? to look forward to each day with a tinge of excitement knowing today might be the day Sweet curiosities Curtsy introductions all the right ingredients will it be by the bistro at the end of town? the junction down busy avenue maybe the railway exit or on the lovely red bus? Petite flowers do pop by It’s not fate, not silly romantics only a collection of coincidence falling into place It’s a peppy phenomenon where new energies are found in an instant Another day, a new possibility You’re there. We’re there We just haven’t met yet :)  Because I believe Love can happen everywhere. Do you?Me & my curls
Wednesday, October 14, 2009 @ 12:14 AM
maybe i should be more like Joseph Gordon Levitt. haha! no don't worry it's nothing about 500 days of summer. Though i must say i'm dying to watch it.. the movie's tagline is totally asking that i watch it. but nahh this entry is actually about Joseph and his natural curl! Just look at it! *points points*I have a goddamn natural curl too! and trust me i hate it! i've been rebonding my front over and over again. But i got tired of it this time round so i decided to give curl another chance. HAHA. I mean hey! after all, the following stars below share the same fate as i do, Natural Born Curly Hair since birth! If you can't do anything about it why not make the best out of it right?! x] first and foremost, all the hype and fever atm, Mr. Joseph Gordon Levitt  every girl's dream, Mr. Robert Pattinson  The star of music and lyrics, Hugh Grant  everyone's favourite, Orlando Bloom  The never quite yesterday Johnny Depp  but even after all that's been said, there's still the argument that the hair texture of the dear westerners are completely different from us Asians. And it's true. demoralizing much huh. But then i learned that that isn't the real problem. the real problem is quite simply, acceptance. And all about that, i know pretty well that the styles for men with curly hair are near endless. Just look at Jun Matsumoto and all his different (and often bizarre) styles. But the difference is that he residues in Japan. In Singapore even the slightly out of the norm styles gets disapproval and stares that screams ' look at that weirdo!' Basically the point i'm trying to make is, it really depends on the individual; how daring you are, how far you'd go. Whether you put your style before the people's judgment. To be honest, i have not reach that stage but I want to and intend to. One day i want to head out the door with a messy out of the bed look, insane waves and basically not give a damn about what others say. Til then i guess. Til then! HAHA :) awesome car ads
Tuesday, October 13, 2009 @ 10:04 PM
Haha most of you should know that i'm quite the petrol head, here are some of the best car ads i've seen which i'd like to share! ^ My Favourite ad of all time!! Aha! The Mini-killer of the 80s! Who could possibly forget about the classical Peugeot 205! I like the way this is choreographed and the music too! Really different from the usual car ads we're used to seeing This one's not bad either you're my fascination
@ 1:29 AM
 you're my fascination, always have, always will be and thats the problem, its scary am I nearing a wall or just gaining pace you're the hardest I am clueless to what will take you away and thats the problem, its scary Tries are weary letting go a tormenting perspective you're not all the answer but I am the question.. Ok i know i sound a little crazy but I'm really just writing :) AWW.
Monday, October 12, 2009 @ 1:40 AM
 My Bittersweet Weekend
Tuesday, October 6, 2009 @ 12:41 AM
 Ok this weekend is Massive. For a start, i drove more than 600km, that’s more than the total distance from the extreme North to South of Malaysia! Drove up practically every single hill you can find in Singapore just for the fun of it. Travelled all the major expressways at least twice; went to all four corners of Singapore, pass Bugis Street singing our lungs out with windows winded down and radio blasting, pass pine trees boulevards with winds gushing over our heads. Whizzed through traffic, dashed through rain and that’s all but just the beginning.. Met C on Friday. I wouldn’t say I got lost but I certainly lost my face. Haha! The first incident is both hilarious and embarrassing. We were actually travelling on the right direction on CTE when C said, ‘erm, I think we’re on the wrong side right?’ without a thought I just when, ‘oh ya’ and did a u-turn at the nearest exit. Must be the power of 4 hours of sleep, both me and her. Second mistake was made over at the end of Dunearn Rd. Needed to head towards Farrer from Adams Rd. But the road sign over at the T-Junction reads only ‘Adams’; apparently not exactly the most helpful road sign you’d expect. Didn’t know left or right was the one towards Farrer so I took a chance and headed left. Ended up turning to the wrong side and on to Lornie road we went! Had to make another U-turn AGAIN. Lol but no excuses for this, I’m simply not familiar enough with the local roads just yet! Last one’s completely not my fault though. The once familiar Queensway has been completely reconstructed and the 4 lane road towards IKEA became a bleedy one lane filter road called ‘Queens Close’. WTPHAT! the best part is that it doesn’t even appear on the map! Ended up doing an illegal right turn to savage the situation. very very bad. haha! I think I must have bore the crap out of C. Could see her playing away on her very new 32gb iTouch =| Thankfully the final trip to Swiss Club was smooth and flawless. Actually this weekend has been more bad than good. I finally bought a mirror from IKEA, and with some effort and plenty fun managed to fit it into the car. Got it back home safely but it got smashed in the end - at HOME. So essentially all the time, money and effort were for nothing. UGH. Then there’s the accident. This stupid guy on his motorbike smacked right onto the car when I was reversing to park. All I can say is f'ing blind, f'ing suicidal and f'ing stupid. Completely ruined our supper. Then again, the accicident made the night and weekend more unforgettable than what it could have been. Not forgetting the sun, cycling, plane spotting, camwhoring (actually only gui) and endless driving pleasure. This weekend has indeed been the most scary, crazy & memorable weekend I think I’ll ever have for many years to come. The sacrifices have been worth it. The issues ahead silenced simply by the joys attained..  my attention while i was driving. So SNAP! x) WATTA HAZY DAY
Wednesday, September 30, 2009 @ 5:17 PM
 Walked out of the erms room today and Woah. quite nearly choking just trying to breath normally. well, I do remember reading on the papers that the haze's here to stay but who would have thought it'd be this bad :/ The air smells like burnt bbq and it's so smokey, even buildings dissappear & fade away in shade. No wonder everyone around me seems to be falling sick and i think i'm going next! =( Can't believe i'm going to meet good'O kenneth later in this bleedy haze. and i can't say no because i was the one who asked to meet. aha. The only change in my plan shall be that i'll be making a dash to the the nearest mall as soon as i'm out of the train station. no wayy i'm going to stay outdoors. not today. For those who are on the verge of falling ill, drink plenty of water! For those who have recovered, take care! as for myself.. good luck :S -i'm not sure if i'm done yet. I'm not sure if i'm ready for change or for anything at all.. As Life Picks Up
Saturday, September 26, 2009 @ 2:06 AM
 I had an impromptu meet up with Lucien today. It wasn’t much of a catching up - as we thought - because I realised half the time I was just grumbling about my stories and asking for his opinion & advice. it’s funny cause i'm usually the one doing the deed. Aha. I guess tonight is what the Americans would call a heart-to-heart talk but nah.. that’s way too girly I must say though, he has some pretty interesting views on certain issues.. well, i shalln't share too much details.. Our night ended with a conclusion that our old carefree days were so much better off. In my own words, “Our age has certainly caught up with us.. life's picking up, and fast; one to slow and you're find yourself tumbling.” I guess gone are the days where we can just mess around with our lives and then lay back without a single worry. And I’m afraid it’s only going to get worse as we grow older.. Things will get more serious, some become complicated and others confusing; and more so than not, we’ll find ourselves lost. *Shrugs* I’m just glad there are such beings called friends when that time comes. Okay. I think I shall stop here! Haha thanks for hearing me out today Lucien. Awesome car btw. i shall dub it the red chick magnet from this day forth ;D Enervated
Wednesday, September 23, 2009 @ 11:18 PM
OK I think this one's not bad. It shouldn't be hard to understand, yes yes its about love again. So yipee-ya i guess? Its not exactly about something sad nor happy. But if i had to choose i'd say its a sad one with a touch of optimism, at least thats what i hoped and therefore how i wrote. Was actually done up last night but i only had time to edit it over supper today. Haha. Well, i hope u guys like it! :) neither rising nor descending a quiescent standstill at peace and in envy A beautiful sight surrounds me like a thousand inverted rainbow dewdrops painted in hight blue skies some hang above me others rise fast from beneath where i stay afloat, often lost I'm not exhausted only you short to keep me going so if you're still there light up the heat and send me soaring Willy-nilly eventuation I shall stay unruffled & in place wind, rain or shine until another lovely balloon pops by But until then l’ll be pinned beneath heaven's garden as a great big hot air balloon waiting to be moved by you. Its not worth it
Sunday, September 20, 2009 @ 9:48 PM
Sometimes, when trying to prove only does more harm than good. when mentions shoot back. & when there's nothing that can possibly be changed, you leave & let there be it. It ain't about respect no no way no maybe prepossessive bigotry a prelude to injustice there are certainly no irregulations just impressions forged by the seat on the other side sometimes we simply don’t learn to understand but choose to let our emotions run free and sometimes I prefer to just whist away they say I’m naive no no way no whoever said turning one’s back was about yourself? has it ever incurred that sometimes people walk away to protect the ones they love? even if they're the very ones that have chosen to judge so I’m slithering back to my cavern but once more cause I know sometimes even if people don’t you have. Peanut Butter Jam Late
Friday, September 18, 2009 @ 3:51 PM
 Here’s an exchange of sms with ben earlier today:Ben: Since when u started waking up more than an hr b4 u r suppose to be at sch? Me: Well, since being late became a big huha Yep. That’s right. I can’t even be late for a minute now.. everything goes recorded and I’ll be evaluated based on that & obviously being late is not gonna help me get good grades :\ I need good grades. But it feels weird arriving at school early; even if it’s just a minute or two. I’ve been late pretty much all my life. And those occasional times when I did arrive early, wasn’t purposeful. If i must say, its definitely the train or bus which went faster; anything but me. Tyring to change feels kinda like you’ve been using a spoon to spread jam over your bread for years now and all of a sudden you’re told to do the right thing and use a proper spreader. It’s nothing really. Just that you’re so used the old you. Like apples to pears. punk turned geek. In any case I never eat breakfast. Branch however is in my dictionary ;) i wanna do new stuff
Wednesday, September 16, 2009 @ 11:29 PM
 i decided that i shall pick up skate boarding once i'm done with breaking (definitely still sometime before that) and i need to get the right connections!!! So please tell me if you know anyone who skates kay!! aha. & i suppose i mentioned this before, i really want to take ballroom dance. waltz, salsa, whatever along that line.. unfortunately the lessons are terribly expensive, i don't have the time and i want to learn it together with a gal. & preferably my own gal at that. Ahaha. I mean c'mon its definitely better than dancing with some random aunty from the dance class right. But oh well, looks like i have neither.. so i shall suck the entire idea up and wait.. wait for some ka ching to start flowing in before deciding on anything. haha winding back
Sunday, September 13, 2009 @ 2:25 AM
 Lol. My brother brought 3 guy friends back. Told me they’ll be staying over and that one more’s coming. wow. I wonder how all of them are going to squeeze and fit into the tini room of his. I mean geez our rooms are like the smallest ever I swear. Oh and guess what, that makes 7 guys under the roof and just one lady – my mom. Haha. Slight bit off topic, but still about stayovers and our rooms, I just realised I’ve never actually let any girl into my room before. and since I’m already at it, I shall make it a point that the gal who eventually does is someone special to me. Kinda like Nishikado in the show Hana Yori Dango and his whole bike theory. Basically, he lets and doesn’t mind his bros (or guy friends) seating at the back seat of his bike but never ever a girl & only that one special gal he’ll eventually find one day will get to sit and ride the journey with him.. I like that. Its cool. haha. ways, I think I managed to snap myself out of some stuff I had in my mind for some time now. I know it might probably still linger back down in my mind somewhere but I can only hope it’ll eventually fade away into abyss. Well, lets just say, there's one too many poems written so it’s time to wind back into perspective. adrenaline.
Thursday, September 10, 2009 @ 11:18 AM
 Muhaha. Items arrived safely from the states. And guess what? They are in the right size and correct colour! LOL. How rare that my online purchase come as they should :x and I’m impressed! Only took them 9 days from payment to delivery! :D I was expecting the usual 2 weeks or more. haha Shall upload some pics later. Anyway EMRS is pretty awesome. I’m under the fashion team so I get to ‘visit’ places like bugis, far east and the such to source for suppliers. But we all know it’s more than just that. Haha! Moving on, I have a confession to make: I LOVE DRIVING. Yeap Yep. ABSOLUTELY DO. So I don’t suppose I’ll ever get bored of it anytime soon; so long as it’s a manual. Like seriously. I think I’ll die if automatics took over the world. There will be no more clutch to trash, no more throwing of the shifter, bahhh basically there’ll be no more fun! I'm not sure how I can explain this to the lazy people out there who swear by automatics. For starters, I can't deny the fact that automatics these days are getting more efficient and responsive to throttle inputs as compared to a decade ago. One such example would be the Porsche 911 with its automatic PDK sequential gearbox; which have proven to be faster than its manual counter-part time over time. I mean come on, how can we shift a traditional gear stick faster than pair of shifters backed by geeky technologies but even so, people (and even some automobile enthusiast) are missing the point. It’s the thrill of shifting the stick at your will, the feedback you get and the entire motion of it. One you can never get on an automatic. Playing paddle shifters might look cool (and yea, its fast) but I’d rather be playing some console game if that was the case. Uhuh. Then again that’s just me :] simply hilarious.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009 @ 12:45 AM
 Cops are weird.
Sunday, September 6, 2009 @ 4:30 AM
when out for supper with ZJ and my brother. we left the placed happily with satisfied tummys only to be ruined by a cop we encountered later at a road block.The retarded cop was directing me as i preapared to stop for the road block. His actions clearly seems to suggest that he wanted me to stop where the side window will be next to him but apparently he wanted me to stop the car right in front of him instead. For that, he slammed on the windscreen of the car. Like WTF? dudeee how the F am i suppose to know where or how you wanted me to stop?! You can't even give a simple or proper hand signal! and he even dared to slam on the windscreen! what an attitude for a cop!! We're guessing that he was afraid that i might run him over.. but it doesn't make any sense because i was the one that wanted to stop by the side of him! like errr? in any case, i really should have just ran right though him. so after we pulled over and got out of the car, he theantened to release a warning to us. I was seriously wondering what will the warning letter will say. lol jokes aside, we couldn't do anything when they wanted to record our identity & details down on paper, like they always say, sometimes you just have to appease to these people. You can't really win. mess with them and they'll just fuck you up; probably even take your license away. So we just gave in and pretended to stay nice and cool.. just because they don the blue uniform doesn't mean they can empower people with their superfluous authority; otherwise it's simply abusing. What i can't believe though, is that we're actually paying thier salaries.. I mean, in the end, we're actually paying taxes so that these retards can screw our lives up. how ironic. >:( and finally to end this entry, here's what my bro & ZJ have to say: Bro: i feel so bu gan xing. its the way singapore and law is i guess. no one really knows when they will cross the unmarked boundaries no one really dares to stand out to say anything all i know is e law is being enforced by really F up ppl now ZJ: First it was army, then it was SMRT and now its the police. Talking about stupidity and retarded-ness... Realise it's all govt. orgs? roflmao. And not to mention, I have something against old, guailan losers, esp. ones that play hierarchy. 3 nails into the coffin, i hope the last one seals them up dead for good.  circumstances of taking
Tuesday, September 1, 2009 @ 2:01 AM
good enough?well, no one ever is. the real question is, what good is it in for me? myriad of puzzles shall be continued there shall be no last laugh no winners or losers. only who takes the most of the little games we all play  at least i know i'm taking the jump. Are you?BLAH
Sunday, August 30, 2009 @ 11:43 PM
i really need to control my spendings. like seriously. i need professional help.recently got a hoodie along with some other shirts off ebay but I couldn't control myself and bought another hoodie from pull & bear today; the one from ebay hasn't even arrived!! +,+ anyway i saw this nice navy Vespa in the carpark today. i'm guessing its a male driver. I mean its navy man. it has to be! really awesome stuff. i should really stop procastinating and kick my butt out to get my bike licsense. I love Vespas. but because i'm a petrol head, pedal heavy kinda guy, maybe i'll be better off on a cruiser instead. and eh, no thanks i hate sports bike. I admit they're fast and cool but there's no expression to them besides speed, speed and more speed, cruisers are way cooler. Think Ryan Reynolds and Ewan Mcgregor. Or perhaps the black leather jacket, the deep sounding motor (instead of the ripping roar you get from sports bikes), the chrome parts and silver bits, that long exhaust pipe and the exposed motor. oh yea.. now we're talking. anyway i ate hell a lot today. like seriously hell a lot. both lunch and dinner. Bloated much. still am : and i swear the government/ns is retarded. They made the pre-enlistment process such a pain in a arse. The instructions are completely useless. The FAQ is utter rubbish and the website is just plain confusing. I didn't know serving NS could be this dreadful this early :o oh and TEP starts tmr. I'm hyped about meeting new people but i'm not really excited on the whole. the '9-5 everyday' thing is just turning me off. And they say u must never be late for TEP. I'm always late. So i should be pretty screwed. oh well, we'll see how it goes..  pissed!
@ 12:24 AM
 Goodbye.Right now I’m so pissed I don’t know what do but write. So I’m going to rant now. You don’t have to read it. I just lost a bike. The 2nd one in just under a year. Both bikes(bicycle) cost me about half a K each!! Seriously fuck this. I lost it in the exact same location and manner as the first. All I did was have it parked for a few hours. I’ve lost faith in Singapore; more so then ever. Ok maybe it’s just Toa Payoh. I really can’t comment about the other districts. But wtf. People elsewhere in the world can have their bicycles UNLOCKED, have it there for HOURS maybe even DAYS and no one will even take it. Talk about MORALS! Singaporeans still have heaps to catch up on. 1st world country? uh. far and beyond as I see it. I made it a point to park the bike at a designated bicycle parking bay at Toa Payoh Hub (mrt station). Tons off people walk pass it day in day out. It was as BUSY and CROWDED as it could be so i really thought it’ll be safe and near impossible to be stolen.. That’s not even half the story. I when out and all today, had a great day. But I was really tired and I completely forgotten that I cycled to the mrt earlier. Only realised when I stepped into my house that I’ve left my friend’s bike at the hdb hub(yes made worse by the fact that this 2nd bike I lost is actually my friend’s). Without even thinking, I dropped my stuff, grab the keys and dashed out. Knowing that I’ve lost a bike once before, I ran, I could swear I ran as fast as I could . I bolted across the junctions, even ignored traffic. And when I can finally stop to catch my breath, I didn’t; instead I shot one out, the word FUCK. The bike was GONE. I was paranoid; I kept walking off and then back, in cycles and even combed the area. I must have been really stupid. Once it’s gone it’s gone. Obviously it wouldn’t magically appear. I was speechless and I didn’t know how to tell my friend. And it wasn't just my friend. It was the bike. It really meant something to me. I’ll tell you why. Back in 2007 I got into a Car accident while cycling. It was the very bike that I lost today that I was cycling on that fateful day. You might think, isn’t that my friend’s bike. Well on paper yea but technically there’s more to that The bike was originally mine. I got it back in 06. I rode it well, rode it hard, you wouldn’t imagine the total distance I clocked in it. It took in mud, took in sand, took in everything I got to give. It had my sweat and even my blood strained on it. The bike was badly sacred (had many scratches) after the accident but that made me love it even more. This might sound weird, but I love it. I frigging love it. I mean, we did went through so much together! Unfortunately, after the accident my dad wanted me to get rid of the bike. Of course I couldn’t. But to please him I sold it to my friend - so at least it vanishes from his sight. However, if you know me, I’m as rebellious as you would imagine. No in a hell way I’m retiring. One accident wasn’t going to stop me from cycling. So I got a second bike secretly (and almost immediately), spent about $500 on it as well. Not even half a year in, I lost it. That was the first bike I lost. I can even vividly remember when.. it was during the Ocktober fest period last year. And today I lost a 2nd bike. My original Avalanche GT 2. This is driving me fucking insane. My friend recently told me that he’s getting a new bike and that he was going to return me my beloved bike. We would have been reunited.. and now it’s now gone thanks to the thief. The bloody thief. Well, whoever you are, fuck you. OH, & seriously, that bike is cursed. Only I can ride it. Break the lock, it’ll break your bones.. trust me, it’ll lead you straight into a car accident. Maybe I’ll get to see it. And dear oh dear I’ll just coolly claim back what’s rightfully mine and leave you dying on the road. You read me thieve.. Just you wait. Just you wait.. oh Alpha-Bits. how much i miss you
Friday, August 28, 2009 @ 3:31 AM
  Post Alpha-Bits. One of my childhood favourites. the cereal that i would always beg my mom for in the supermarket when i was little. where she'll always go 'this again?!' I remembered how i use to eat up all the non-marshmallow bits and leaving the marshmallows for last. I also remembered taking them out of the bowl to form words and sentences. or how my elder brother disliked the marshmallow bits and wouldn't mind giving me his - which i never quite understood why and then one day, it vanished off the shelves of every supermart. not even the hypermarts like carrefour have them. gone. just like that. that was years ago. but today i've got breaking news because i found an alternative! Lucky Charms! I don't do the groceries so i've no idea whether this cereal's something new or has always been around. But it definately caught my attention. The good news is it taste 99% identical to my beloved Alpha-Bits, the bad, well, it never felt anywhere near the same as munching on good-O Alpha-Bits.. i guess i miss the seeing those alphabits. chewing on weird symbols & hourglasses just didn't felt right or as satisfying. Haha. but oh well, for those Alpha-Bit fans out there, THERE U HAVE IT, an ALTERNATIVE to your old time favourite! cheers. x)  oh and there's this! Oreo Chocolate Cake. HEY. i know what u're looking at.. you're looking at the wrong thing. look at whats on the bowl and not whats behind! haha. let me finish talking about the cake first, i'll talk about whats behind later! Ya. so anyway, mom got it from some unknown cake shop. but it doesn't matter cos it taste awesomee. i had 3 slices at one go. actually, more like 6 by the way and proportion i cut. haha! x] Isn't it fascinating how the stomach groans for food at 3am in the morning.. it must think its time for breakfast already.. aha. I'm so going to get fat Alright. now about the background (the moment all of u have been waiting for right.) Well, sorry to dissapoint, i wasn't watching a porn flick over supper (who on earth does that anyway? lol). I was watching the movie 'what women want'. It's one of Mel Gibson's most brillant movies in his younger days despite some minor flaws, the movie was brillant and its made even better when u're watching it in the comfort of your bedroom, shielded away from blustering rain and the cold night sky outside.. RETRO FASHION
Thursday, August 27, 2009 @ 1:48 AM
 quotes part I
Wednesday, August 26, 2009 @ 11:51 AM
"At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. Some things you say because there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself and not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves." - Meredith Grey off kinahhhh's blog. Thanks for letting me share it here kinah! :) "Grant me the strength to accept the things that I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference." - Khadgar, WoW this one's off Zinc's wall on facebook. HAHA. i thought this quote was from the bible but Zinc told me it's from WoW, i was like wow. haha. cool game man! xD Kids
Saturday, August 22, 2009 @ 1:06 AM
 I’m munching on an apple now and I hear squishy squashy noises in my left ear. like what the hell. lol. I think there’s some left over soap in it. probably didn’t rinse well in my bath. Haha. Aye. was studying over at KFC today. There was this cute kid. Haha actually two. The first one really looked like a malay but he’s parents were both Chinese! Haha. He kept staring at me. I don’t know what’s there so interesting to look at. Except maybe for that stupid fly that kept buzzing around me the whole time I was there. But it wasn’t then! Haha! He was really adorable. He had this ‘huh’ look on his face. why is it that wherever I go there’s always something to distract me from my study?! Haha. Anyway, when the kid and his parents were about to head off he came in front of me and literally stood there. So I smiled and waved bye at him. He looked so happy when I did and waved back before running to his parents. Haha! Maybe he thought i was some statue that couldn't move. oh well, at least there wasn't anymore huh face :) That was the first kiddo. Next one sat across the table to where I was. I think he might be hyper active; his mum obviously failed to contain him. haha. But he was pretty cute too. He stood on the chair, faced where I was and started singing never say never by the fray. he was like only 3? or 4 tops? though he could only sing the line ‘don’t let me go, don’t let me go’ haha! but it’s still pretty impressive considering that he could barely pronounce let alone sing them out loud. aha on a separate incident, i was reading an A4 sized brochure while walking just the other day when a wind blew by, swiping it straight off my hands like a weightless tissue paper. it flew and landed smack on the face of this cute eurasian baby girl who was in a pram not far away. not lying. Haha! i don't know if i was lucky but her mum happened to be looking away when it happened. it was hilarious. i have a snap shot of the baby girl's expression in my head as i removed the brochure off her face. it was priceless. haha. and her elder brother standing beside the pram couldn't stop laughing. I'm just glad that she didn't start crying! or i'll be in trouble. haha! I don’t want to sound like a pedophile but haha I think I might like kids. Though I think having your own is another story. don't get me started on their high pitch cries. lol. Anyway, getting stared by kids isn’t something new to me. I get plenty of those on trains and buses, and somehow i always have them knocking into my legs. haha. They just go running about in shopping malls then BUMP, Knock into this really tall thing. Look up slowwwly, with that really blur look on their faces & little birds twirling in circles over their head. and their running parents (to catch up with their little kidos) will come and apologise. lol. funnies. I shall call them the kamikaze kids. Haha. ahhh.. family and all.., how nice! that’s really life man And now back to studying. argh. FML mr. octopus
Friday, August 21, 2009 @ 2:39 AM
 I feel like mr. octopus here. like i've let out a stinky puff. made a mistake. something i shouldn't have done & can now never reverse. i'm in oops and ahh.HO.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009 @ 12:53 AM
 Robert Downey Jr.Hollywood's comeback kid Watch out for him in the upcoming Sherlock Holmes ;) and ahh. i really want to steal everything he's wearing here! Don't you just love how that white suit goes with the striped shirt?!  and i also want to steal this pair of spectacles.i wanna try squares for a change  and this god darn bag.british flag embroideries are always an appeal to me because i'm nuts about well, Britain. and it's not just about the londoners or how they dress. oh, i almost forgot. there's emma watson there too. haha random thoughts & talks. part II
@ 12:04 AM
1. The entire house rake of the smell of durian2. If there was such a thing as durian juice, that’s how the milk in my fridge taste like now 3. My tongue is purple as I just had a bunch of grapes (which also happen to taste like durians; they all share the same darn fridge) 4. I hate durians 5. My little toe is still swollen like a tiny red mushroom =( 6. Studying is difficult when there’s something constantly up there you can’t stop thinking about.. 7. The only complain I have of Starbucks now is their rock-solid (literally) wooden chair. It feels like I’ve just sat on the horns of an antelope. My butt cheeks are not pleased. 8. Saw the balcony of this house from a distant today. It was completely forested. yea. forested. It’s basically one big patch of green with plants growing (and overflowing) beyond the limits of what the balcony could possibly hold. I wonder what the owner was thinking but I guess it must be cool looking out from the inside; I bet it’ll feel like you’re looking out into a rainforest. I reckon the owner’s a jungle-junkie, tarzan wannable. 9. I’ve (finally) gotten over the fear that my dyed hair will turn green when I step into chlorine infested pool waters. I just miss the sun and water. I want to take my clothes off and jump right in now. oh I wish I could. 10. Had sweets for dinner. it wasn’t good. that song..
Monday, August 17, 2009 @ 2:24 AM
The song I heard over mos is actually the movie’s theme song, 'If We Hold On Together' by Diana Ross. I’m pretty sure most of you have heard of it. Part of the lyrics goes, “If we hold on together, I know our dreams will never die, dreams see us through to forever where clouds roll by, for you and I…” foot soldier
Wednesday, August 12, 2009 @ 10:03 PM
 hope the subject of war doesn't come off too strongly. needed to write discretely and couldn't find a better way. I actually had some trouble thinking of the subject at first. It wasn’t untill I came across Radiohead's new release; a song in tribute to the late and last living British World War I veteran; the song wasn't great, then again it doesn’t matter, it gave me the idea and thats good enough. Though I must say, what Radiohead did was really cool and commendable. Ok I’m getting carried away as always, haha here's what i came up with. It’s obviously not about the WWI veteran. I’m just borrowing the war.. I’m a foot soldier I joined the war no contemplation no agenda now I’m lost and cold as I crease through nights in bewildering wonder why ever did I join this war? maybe it’s time to withdraw from this excruciation I see no alleviation I've tried taking a step back slow but there was no vindication I just don't want to be that swinging oakwood door like dirt on my boots I’ve stepped into charade but there's no real escape so i'm fighting i'm fighting. I am a foot soldier vulnerable as I step into iffy horizons.. --- anyway here's a vid of Lisztomania which i jus had to share with you guys. i fing love it. American Beggars
@ 1:34 AM
here's why i might be really generous with American beggars. because what they do might very well make my day. say, while i'm walking down the streets one gloomy winter day and happen to see one of them. aha. I think they have the power to make even the greyest, coldest winter interesting.. put smiles on ppl's face despite the rescession and all. someone teleport me to America already please. haha          and if u're lucky, u might even get to see things like this,  ahaha how cool is that. in singapore, the most interesting thing u might get to see onboard a train is probably something like this,  next to aunties digging their noses of course; oh yes, i've seen. after plicking they simply flick their crap all over the place. sick. ANYWHO, MGMT's Time to Pretend is ringing in my head right now. i really love the start of that song! haha it has a nice tinge to it. last time i got this ringing in my head feeling was with Black Eye Peas's I got a feeling.. hah people watching.
Sunday, August 9, 2009 @ 5:38 PM
photos after the jump.This is hilarious. thrifty Dad and indecisive Mom bought a new sofa in under 20 mins. I like that. In fact, I think I might have played a part in it. mmmmm. haha! basically i just glued myself to the sofa for the greater part of the time spent in the furniture store. They’ll either have to get it or leave me there. wahaha. nah.. I guess it was at a reasonable price; at least mom says so, dad was kinda reluctant at first but after a few other shoppers came back and stared at it with beaming eyes that read “I love that sofa!!”, he gave in. HAHA it was really funny because it was the last piece. I just sat there the whole time watching couples coming by, sat, wow-ed, speak softly amongst themselves, walk away, come back again, sat, whisper.whisper. That made my mom really anxious. Haha. And my dad was quite cute too, he just wandered about seating on practically everything he saw and he had that grumpy face so it made it even more hilarious because it looked like no sofas will ever satisfy him. For me? Well I just sat on that same chocolate brown sofa. Couldn’t even twitch. Too lazy to move. Too comfortable too. Haha. So, it turned out to be some kind of competition to see which couple decides to get it first. Oh well, looks like mi family won aye? Cheers to that. haha! See mom? dad, I knew u could do it. It’s really not that difficult to give in to impulsive, spontaneous buying. aha. Anyway, i FINALLY got the chance to go timbre! Haha been hearing about it for some time now and I’ve read about it in the papers too. It was pretty awesome, the roasted duck pizza I had was quite unique but I got sick off it after sometime haha. To me though, the ambience was more important, and that was well covered. Really love to chill at places like this. Actually we arrived really early because we’ve heard of scary long queues and we missed the reservation period; which has to be done a week before. So we basically waited a really long time for the performance to start. But it was worth the wait, Fatt was really talented on the guitar and Pam was as good an entertainer as she was a singer. She made one poor fellow sing the chorus of poker face for her, I think the guy was not pure Singaporean, maybe Filipino, we just heard po..po..po..ka café. po..po..po..ka café instead of poker FACE. Haha. Some birthday people got dragged on stage etc, it wasn’t much but yea. some laughs here and there. It was a terrific night. Great experience; feels wholly different from the last one I went in ben and jerry's. Ahh I really want a life like that. Going up to places like dempsey hill, chilling in style. WAHAHA. omg shit haha starting to get all materialistic. bad. bad. haha but I’ll aim for that though. Really want a comfortable, relaxed lifestyle when I'm older. I don’t need to be uber rich. Just rich will do. LOL. Currently listening to: The Best of Rolling Stones.     this one's taken in the store  delivered on the same day! NICE =D On smelling like cookies
Friday, August 7, 2009 @ 12:40 AM
 say no to OCK and yes to American's favourite cookie Oh man. i just got a huge scolding from my dad after he witnessed me toppling over while i was practicing my handstand. There wasn't even a loud THUD when i fell lah. I just made some ahhhhh sound while i was in the process of falling so it’s obviously not because i hurt myself but more along the lines of 'crap i'm losing my balance again' thus the ahhhhh. haha So that was that. haha massive over reaction from mr. old fashion. He continued to quote multiple incidents he read from the papers of dancers and stuntmen who died doing their thing. I only remembered nodding. like, a lot. haha. Aiya. Good intentions clearly. but oh pls dad, i'm not about to die while trying to do some silly handstands okay! haha moving on, i'd suspect you must be wondering what the picture above is all about. haha. well, lets talk about old chang kee. for complete idiots, its a stall which sells all sorts of puffs and other fried stuff. ok so here's the thing, i really really hate it. I don't use to until the branch at toa payoh opened You see, it happens to be STRATEGICALLY located smack in the middle where everyone needs to walk to get to the train station and every time i walk pass the store i'll be welcomed with this omgwtf-rish disgustingly pungent smell of deep fried food. Actually, a better portrayal of the situation would be like walking right through a massive field of floating oil particles. I know that might not sound ghastly enough to you. so I would now like you to imagine it in slow-mo. matrix style. Instead of having cool rainy waters smacking on your face like a refreshing bath, its oil. oil probably reused over and over, and imagine the sound effect in slow-mo, phak. phak. phak. phak all that oil slapping right across your face. horrid enough for you? haha now i know why facial wash adverts are always about CLEARING & REMOVING EXCESS OIL. i think i’d really need those. haha. you know, I can’t help but think they should just close the old chang kee and replace it with Famous Amos. it’ll be like a junkyard of a difference. Like walking pass a nice perfume shop (or a bikini store if you prefer, male readers) to a gigantic rubbish dump. Haha. Just imagine! i’ll be feeling all sweet every time I walk pass that place and never oily again! (I’m sure you know the expression everyone gets when they sniff famous amos from afar right. ahaha. Kinda like what Ron looks like after drinking the love portion in the Half Blood Prince) & so, wherever i might be taking the train to, u’ll be sure to be greeted by a GRINNING SLAPHAPPY GORDON SMELLING LIKE YUMMY CHOC COOKIES. SO MUCH BETTER THAN A GORDON ALL SMUDGE UP IN OIL AND SMELLING LIKE FRIED SOTONG BALLS RIGHT?! Can someone please be so kind to start a partition on closing the store with the big mean yellow banner? i'll love you =D it’ll be a long night.. Gordon is sick
Wednesday, August 5, 2009 @ 4:57 PM
 yea. thats exactly how i look like now. Except with some pants on feeling extremely sleazy, almost like i slept faced down for hours straight and now i have to wheeze for air for the rest of the day. haha. a few days of sleepless nights is also making me groggy. My neck feels like its going to snap off any moment. Boxes of tissue can't keep up with my nose which happens to be pouring more violently than niagara falls and now redder than Rudolph's - the red nose deer. And my throat. I sound oh so sexy now. Well, as long as i don't start coughing at you cause i promise you it'll be like a tommy gun. non-stop & very very rapid haha but nah hah. doubt it'll be h1n1. And if it is. LAWL. lets just say i've been seeing a lot of people lately. you're all so going to get it ;D wahaha. ok la. on a more serious note. i really hope i dun get it. I dun fall sick often and i'm not used to this queasy feeling. really hate it. grouchy and all :\ do gals really get something like this everytime their period is around the corner? if so, OH MAH. i'll jus hang myself. seriously :o OK I just did something completely unpremeditated. so there's this pile of used tissue paper all over my desk, decided to grab them all together to form this huge ball. Wanted to see how big it'll be (needed to throw them anyway). apparently its almost the size of a netball, like the size of those minature basketball. hahas. amazing. ALRIGHT. BYE WORLD. let me die in peace :| School's a bore & so i am blogging
Monday, August 3, 2009 @ 11:11 AM
here's an exchange of smses i had with balek earlier today. hahaMe: ...ok school. late. bye! Balek: Your mornings r so typical. Wake up, then 'wanna shit but no time to shit', realise u r late for sch. rush to sch. Me: ehh i shat*. so i am late haha ok now we all know why i'm always late.. WRONG. haha. that just happened to be the case today kay. I'm always late cos of my stupid bed, my flurry pillow, the cosy blanket, and that bloody bolster. heck, i can have my alarm clock on snooze 382791 times and i still wouldn't budge. aha. oh the side note wow. 3 birthdays today! Happy Birthday Pamela! hope ur two front teeth will remain strong & healthy forever so u can keep biting people (as long as its not me) and that you can continue proclaiming how cute you are till u're 90 despite wrinkes and all :b Happy Birthday Yee Xiang! May u have so much weed today u start smashing bottles of beer on your own head and may u mow more lawns of your future date with your ur pro-style driving. all halt to impressing our ladies. but phail with dignity. for one day we shall prevail! wahaha xD Happy Birthday Cheryl! hope u'll find your shuai ge soon! ahah x) whether its a korean one, japan one or taiwan one. as long as he's completely non-chiNA, very rich and absolutely adores you. haha. happy birthday! *shat: the past tense of shit. -courteous of gordondictionary.com shoessss
@ 1:27 AM
the french rock band Phoenix is my new 'suprisingly talented artist' of the month. u just HAVE to go listen to their stuff. especially if u like indie.  Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix. Phoenix's 4th ablum they sound completely brit when they are french we all know the french can't speak english for nuts that alone is praiseworthy & they dun jus speak, they sing and very well at that. so, :O anyw i'm looking for a new pair of shoes to go with the shorts in my wardrobe. drooled much just surfing around today. Saw some really sexy high cuts but they make me look fucking short when i wear them with shorts. so maybe not this time. I want something simple. something clean and unsophisticated, something classic. ways, here are some interesting finds i came across today (i've put them nicely together for ur easy viewing ^^) haha, i might jus end up getting one of them but i highly doubt so. ARGH. first i need cash. I should really rob a freaking bank. mafia style. like johnny depp in public enemies. haha. Why am i not in the freakin' 1930s? i'll so do it. i swear -.-  and this hat too. Ted Baker. i rikes! its suprisingly quite cheap! but as expected, "Out of Stock" ..|.. hahas  So, what time was it again?
Friday, July 31, 2009 @ 1:39 AM
 for the past three days, i've never failed to be late for school & for the past three days, i kept seeing mirroring digits whenever i looked to check the time. 11:11, 14:14, 22:22, 10:10, 08:08 am i suppose to freak out or something superstitious people? becos as far as i know i think its kinda cool. so can't help but tell people about it. haha btw, i'm itching to visit haji lane. I jus realised that i'm always in a hurry whenever i'm there.. & i remembering seeing this cool blue plimsoll the last time but had no time to try! :| Can someone pls ask me out there again? haha oh i think i'm gonna watch hairy potter soon and i want to refresh my memory by watching order of the pheonix. but i dare not start! i think it's like almost 3 hours long?? If i start now i will be sleeping at a time where people have their alarm clocks ringing. and if i watch it in the day i'll feel like i'm wasting a donkey of a time. dilema. dilema. Seriously, where on earth do people find the time to read the books man. even a 3 hour film is too much for me. haha I guess my time is simply too precious. HAH! alright. here's a random question to let you wonder before i buzz "can people cry underwater?" ;D i duno the answer myself. haha! actually heard it over the radio but missed the answer. lol. do tell me if u can't overcome ur curiousity & decide to google it ok?! i'm just too lazy to find out.. and i'm perfectly happy with not knowing the answer too. hahaha I'm a Spinning Sphere
Tuesday, July 28, 2009 @ 11:50 PM
here's evidence that although i actually made the effort to kick myself out & attempt to study, i didn't really. The ambience at Starbucks was.. well, lets just say your mind starts to drift away the very moment you let yourself in. haha. i basically got bored with java (ironic. I had Grande Java Chip) and looked out the window. next thing i knew i was writing. haha. i kinda like it :] its the first time i'm writing based strictly on only what i could see around me. whether it's meant for someone? who knows ;) I'm a spinning sphere floating on gleaming waters accompanied by gentle ripples & soothing vibes a familiar comfort, like a cup of smooth brewed coffee over a worn grey jacket then a bleak wind blew by reminding me of her changing colours but as i spun I see polished rocks shinning through gushing currents indubitably unaffected by the elements of nature so i spin & spin wondering why I was not an unmovable rock but a spinning, floating sphere.. so much for the man who can't be moved. hah. International Friendship Day
Monday, July 20, 2009 @ 2:06 AM
 i can sing a full tune with you around, where we'll just laugh at my silly attempt or sing together like a bunch of idiots i can grumble on about everything under the sun as we make stupid comments at each other i can sneeze, burp (well, not exactly but u get the gist) & laugh as loudly as i want, when i want and we'll all go wtphat or lol together and basically not give a damn i say the fuck word at least 4 times when i'm out with you if any of the above events mentioned sounds familiar, u are experiencing the real ME. And I want you to know that I can only truly be ME around uber friends like you. Chillos for sharing your time, dumb stories and for the countless fun, for listening to my rants, ruffles & boring tales of my hopeless endeavors. for tolerating my impatience, frigidity and occasional cockiness Happy Friends Day peeps x) Loved always. G. I'll
Sunday, July 19, 2009 @ 10:59 PM
 If there were no such thing as school and work, troubles or stress and if money and time were no object. i'll be jamming the guitar, hitting the drums, learning to sing, i'll skydive, paraglide, try the bungee, i'll conquer a mountain, go surfing, ride a horse, race a car, cruise the countryside, i'll count the stars, travel the world, i'll take photos, built a snowman with my love ones, i'll get a puppy, name it happy, walk it everyday and watch sunsets together... but i can't You to Me
Saturday, July 18, 2009 @ 1:02 AM
You to Me - Ver3 your alluring glance your subtle smile drives me insane like a hullabaloo in my head your gentle giggles oh they smitten me so exaggerating? yes maybe but what is there to say for you to me is that soft radiant glow throwing me back and fourth forgive my imprudentness but if you must know you have captured my soul..  I have another. scribbled on tissue paper haha. But i like this one best & yes i feel lost i always do :| OFF THE WALL
Friday, July 17, 2009 @ 11:22 AM
 This freaking cool. Apparently two Brazilian artists (actually they also happen to be brothers) are living over the edge - literally. As they sleep, work & eat on the side of a building about 10 meters up from the ground. The wall is located in Rio de Janeiro & the brothers will be the living art exhibit until August. Talk about crazy artists! :x To move around their 'house' they make use of installed handholds drilled into the wall. which is :OOOOOO because I love rock climbing! haha I seriously want to stay with them for a day or two man! how cool would that be! haha. imagine slacking up there, watching TV, having lunch or chatting with passers-bys in the street down below. I bet most of them will have their jaws drop when they see half naked men resting on their hammock or dining at the table la. damn epic! xD & they dare say Singapore is the home for the arts. IF SO, MAY I ASK WHY DON'T WE HAVE STUFF LIKE THIS HAPPENING HERE IN SINGAPORE?! haha innocent laughs
Saturday, July 11, 2009 @ 4:18 PM
haha i don't know whether to laugh or pity Dave Carroll for his broken guitar. But it is this witty sense of humor and randomness that's what i like about some artists. I mean c'mon how can you hate him for choreographying something as brillant as this! Even if i were an employee at United Airlines i'll steal a laugh behind my office desk. and yes, i'll watch it in office & even share it with my fellow colleagues ;) and i just noticed they're both Daves! If names like Lucien refers to light, perhaps Dave might be refered to as humor? haha now u know what to call your child if u want him to grow up being someone funny ;D First and Last, Slow or Fast
@ 1:14 AM
  got this shirt from FOX at a bang. the words really caught my attention. so although it's a lil long at the bottom i just bought it without much thought haha. & i think FOX is a local company! like :O i really thought it was from the states or something but when i did a search online i couldn't find anything at all! but who cares right. I got the shirt and it's nice so thats all that matter ;) R.I.P GORDON - A Sweet Death
Monday, July 6, 2009 @ 10:29 PM
 OMG. I just skipped death again for the second time in my life!! i'm afraid i'm going to have nightmares on final destination tonight. I got choke by some mushy mashy piece of meat i think?? I didn't chew long enough & i guess i tried to had it whole in one big gurp and CHOKE! nearly died. Dad saved me by squeezing me from behind. YEAAAA like what u see on TVs and movies! damn drama. & it happened to ME!! argh. funny thing was right after that happened i only stood in shock for a second or two and then resume my dinner. haha. sif nothing happened when i just scarcely skipped death! Now that it's over & think of it, it was really scary. death by choking is no joke man! But if i really had to go that way at least make it Willy Wonka's Colourful Gobstoppers or mentos. At least when they have to engrave something on my tombstone it can say something like "A Sweet Death" that is wayyy better than "Death by Fishballs or Fat loaf of Meat". eyucks :/ on to the next subject, was out with Wei Wen & Joon Meng the other day. Apparently, they're both really quite fucked by NS. I didn't quite believe them until Joon Meng had to go off in the middle of Transformer 2 because he was activated & called back for duty! omg! there i was watching the show (the second time) & poor Joon Meng couldn't even finish his first in peace! Later after the movie, Wei Wen told me so far what he has learnt from NS was that things never ever always go the way you want. And as we talked & i thought, that statement was more than just true but that it can be applied to more than one thing in life. In fact, I was doing some planning lately but everything i hoped for never turned out the way i wanted. and i also have this queasy feeling that it'll be there to stay. But as i told the others and i should to myself, there's nothing we can do but hope for the best.. Don't you agree? :) on a lighter note i've no idea if my mum is trying to be funny or cute. if u follow me on tweeter or facebook there was once i said she randomly bought all 3 flavours of hello panda for me. I didnt have pandas this time but you see, i have this big penguin plushy on my bed. Yesterday she put on one of my shirt over it. my reaction was simply :o :x -.- haha it's kinda freaky cos i seriously think she's too old to do something cheeky like that. i mean c'mon mom! haha. Freaks me out everytime shes does something random but then again what can i do. haha i cant hate her for it right? haha it's just so random laa. ahh & guess what? was playing pool with the brudders on Sat. JS did something funny AGAIN and it reminded me of an old entry i made sometime ago. Can you remember the friend whom i said tries to be superman whenever he plays pool? well, it happened again!! Ahaha for those who are lazy here's the pic of the old shot and here's part two ;D   ok not the most glamorous shot & not really flying yet. eminence of a true gentlemen
Monday, June 29, 2009 @ 2:39 AM
 no paranoia tyrants no puerile tantrums but simple principles of a gentlemen pardon, free and enlive random talks
Tuesday, June 23, 2009 @ 4:22 AM
 Here are a collection of random thoughts, talks and shoutouts i've been meaning to blog about but never quite got to because 1) They are too short to come as one entry 2) I can't just squeeze them in a proper entry. So here goes, 1) Arnott's are freakin tasty. (haha sorry eating them now. just had to say.) 2) Don't u find adverts on tagboards interesting. I mean where do they even come from in the first place?! I know some of them are posted by real people who advertise their own blogshop but those on penis enlargement? LOL? those have to be bots and if they really are it's scary how they know i'm a guy, well at least i've yet to see any breast enlargement adverts on my blog yet. whew? 3) Music! You know after you have listened to tons & tons of music, you begin to realise that the oldies are really the best no matter how you look at it. You see, I judge music and how good they are simply by, how many times i can loop it over and over again and/or listen to it every now and then over the weeks, months, years and still not get bored of it. People who say good music are those that simply sound good to their ears are dolts. Because any song can. But how many times can u listen to that supposingly good song until you actually find it irritating? Back to my point, oldies are better because many of them fit into my category of 'will never get bored of' as compared to the ones coming out these days. The last really good one i can recall is probably Hoobastank's The Reason; which isn't exactly that new anyway. 4) Clothes! accessories, hats, whatever! Seriously SOME DESIGNERS ARE JUST PLAIN STUPID. A nice looking flat cap, they add a bloody flap at the back. A nice Shirt with a near cut & chic design, they add a bleedy big and ulgy graffiti at the back. A nice pair of jeans, they add a smiley face at the back pocket. a bloody SMILEY FACE. WTF. why! why! pls tell me what these designers are thinking, finally creating a perfect piece of work only ruining it by their own stupidity. It's more than a catastrophe. It's vandalism. PHAIL! 5) Keith Urban is my new 'suprisingly talented artist' of the month 6) Do you know that a woman who avoided the Air France 447 crash (which killed all 228 people onboard) by changing to another flight at the last minute got killed in car crash only days later? When i read this piece of news, the first thing that came to my was..... yep. u guessed it too. FINAL DESTINATION :O 7) Tweet is kinda dumb but still. haha just add me, http://twitter.com/crunchyapples i'll gladly follow you too =) 8) I finally understand that ppl can still be perfectly happy single. Having a gf is just a bonus and luck plays a very big part in it. 9) It is now 4.56am and i hate myself; because my body clock is terribly screwed. Thanks holidays. Great job :| haha Alrighty i guess thats all for now. Gonna pay ebay a visit before digging into my blanket. Thanks for reading! :] LOL
Monday, June 22, 2009 @ 12:57 AM
I'm like really lazy to blog. so here are some funnies just to keep u entertained.  This one is really good: Irony
Sunday, June 14, 2009 @ 2:35 AM
what should be implanted in my head & what i should 'If we spend too much time thinking, we might miss an opportunity.' saw that on an ATM yesterday. Pretty cool function UOB ATM has. They display some random quotes during any loading or processing sequence. aha. when you first see that line you'll probably start thinking along the lines of something heavy perhaps whether to take up a job offer, whether it's time to invest, start a business etc. What first came to my mind however was, my shopping exprience. yeahh. i know. HAHA let me explain.. Just as i was telling luke the other day, i used to ponder before making any purchases. Even for those minuscule items (actually i still do. most guys do haha) taking hours, days and sometimes even weeks to decide and when i finally do decide to get it, GONE :( that said. i was at far east - also where the ATM was. Later i DID pick a last piece & then i remembered 'If we spend too much time thinking, we might miss an opportunity.' ahhhhh how ironic. So nice of the ATM. the evil ATM .. aye. but just FYI. i dun get mola from my folks. neither will they -ever- sponsor me. so all my $$ = hard earned or what i call, 'straved saved'. haha so nothing to be envious about cos i ain't some rich kid. haha Instead, u should pity me & give me some ka-ching!! OH will u Please be so kind! HAHA i'd wished right. & fuck. i think this entry's damn girly. BLAH i should jus delete it off :\ squirrel & love songs
Friday, June 5, 2009 @ 7:55 PM
 hu.hu.hu. Bout time for me to blog huh. Actually it's more like finally i can blog. been as busy as a squirrel lately. ok fineee i know that idiom doesn't exist. basically i'm just really busy luhh. but don't be disappointed because here i am!! Haha & i decided this entry shall be a happy one ;D If u do a little scroll down (but dun get distracted. scroll down & right back up kay). Notice anything?? depressing much eh? haha! All my woeful & dreary entries must be making you miserable. Poor you.. Poor me. So let’s put an end to that! Which explains why i'm listening to the Beatles now. haha. You know when people say they have magical voices they mean it. I can already feel the positive energy oozing into my bloodstreams down from my ear canals and I’m only a few songs in. It's revitalising; not a moment ago i was just sleeping on my floor & now here I am all hippy, blogging. Actually I was just listening to the radio the other day while i was studying for my buggerish test (which i think i will do well heh) and i noticed something. 90% of the songs are about LOVE in one way or another. and about 67% of them HAVE the word 'LOVE' in it. cool huh. on the side note my numbers are totally random but i'm quite sure it's around there. Yeaaaaa. haha. and if you listen in real hard. the word 'home' is also used very often. haha. dammn now all of you know i'm not actually studying. Just, lost in music =S haha Interesting er? Makes you think all the artists in the world are emo. Haha but nope! i dun think so, i just think that LOVE is THAT powerful. LOVE has the power not only to change people like what we always get in movies, it even has the power to inspire ppl to write music! yepp. Of cos when u think of it you'd first assume the love songs are usually about lost love, break ups etc. but hey! that’s not true. many of these songs are about finding true love, happy love, innocent love, simple crushes and the such. So there you have it. Thankfully hah. or i think all the artists out there need serious help, listen to rihanna's rehab, or come to me - so i can give them a tight slap xD Alright. Dinner's ready. but teehee. rebellious me. I'm going for a jog 1st. Mum's not gonna be happy. haha. buahs! in life & death
Saturday, May 23, 2009 @ 4:16 AM
 Life is frail. Treasure every moment, love, and never hold back.. For there will always be regret but you'll want to look back knowing at least you’ve done something right. I shall not disclose my friend's name as I believe he would want some privacy but what I can say is that he recently lost his dad to cancer. This is the first close friend I have known who has actually lost someone so close and dear. It wass disheartening just to read his latest blog entry. Simple words never seem to be able to strike a force so strongly in me. I cannot imagine the pain and sorrow he must be enduring now. Reading it alone also reminded me very much of my late grandma and grandpa.. and it seems to be the case that people regret (or realise how significant a person’s life is to theirs) only after losing something important in their lives. To my dear friend, I am no man of experience when it comes to life and death but as the quote by Carl Sandburg goes, ‘our lives are like a candle in the wind’.. please don’t be daunted by the memories.. no matter what you must continue to stay strong and keep walking forward. Don’t ever think about putting any blame on yourself. What you need now is some good rest. And remember that everyone’s here for you.. your family your friends.. Ps. If you’re reading this and you ever need to talk don’t hesitate to call me ok? Please Take Care!! Hope you’ll be as strong as the nickname I’ve 'granted' you since we first met. I think you know what I mean :) Who can help me?
Wednesday, May 20, 2009 @ 12:25 AM
I think i have a stress management problem. A terrible one. To me, being able to cope with stress is one thing but being able to channel it off, dissipate and dissolve it is another. In which case i'm awful at both & i believe close friends of mine would surely agree.. I always take things in too seriously without even knowing. I want things perfect and my fastidious nature never fails to take over. My face becomes all oily, my pimples pop, i sleep bad, i get easily irritated & basically go crazy. This isn't good for my health and neither is it good for the people i hold dear around me. Yet i painstakingly take the tow of mentally torturing myself to chase absurd targets which i often set for myself - and not always achieve; only causing a new cycle of guilt while inducing more stress to what i am already expriencing I hate the pressure. I really really need to learn to relax but i simply don't know how. I thought hanging out with friends was the solution. It was. but only temporal. ultimately the guilt (of time wasted) will kick in and that sucks. These days i can't even play a game or watch a movie without feeling some level of guilt sigh.... I think i take every bit of life too seriously, i tend to know too much and think too deeply into things i should not. Sometimes simplicity might really be bliss. I need to lay back, learn life isn't all about what the world surrounding us made us percieve it to be and to take things easy. But can i really afford to do that in this challenging society we live in today? one day this will drive me to insanity. You just pray u're not around me when that happens. scaredy cat
Sunday, May 17, 2009 @ 1:33 AM
 i never knew i was this timid. Or maybe not? Always thought i was quite the man. Never scared of the dark, drunkards & hooligans. Perhaps the only thing i'm afraid of are girls? haha nah. not even that can shake me No really. Ben & I were chilling at Joon Meng's place today and then we started about life in Tekong; quite expected when there's only 3 guys, running out of topic and our ice cream supply. So Ben told us the story of the infamous Thursday Organ Play. It’s about how this poor guy that loitered off his platoon for a leak and later got lost only to be found with his guts splattered out all over (thus the name Organ Play) a few days later. Of cos the story ain’t that simple and short. But apparently it was due to this loose story and incident that in NS no night activities are ever held on Thursdays!! Cool & freaky huh! after one or two more scary encounters Joon Meng shared about his outfield trip, I started feeling groggy with chills running down my spine. Then i went ‘omg how Ben how! going to tekong soon leh. dieeee’ ahaha dammit i must sound like a girl now :X How embarrassing. But dun worry it was a lot less dramatic then the exaggerated example I gave above ;) LOL. So yeaaa Joon Meng went on to give me some tips like never look back when ur name is called, never step on dark black spots in the forest. & if u see a bear, climb up the tree as fast as possible and throw rocks at it. ok the last one i'm lying. his advice was just climb up the tree and call for help. Haha. ohoh and he also said i better learn a particular Buddhist chant. Apparently it works wonders. Doesn't matter which religious you believe in, he said. haha guess I’ll have to pay a visit to a temple armed with a recorder soon :| So there you have it. The story of how I realise I’m not quite the man I hoped I was but instead a very normal human being indeed .. or perhaps a scaredy cat at worst haha! - given the right circumstances and when told by the right person of course! WAHAHA the old is out
Tuesday, May 12, 2009 @ 2:43 AM
haha so i was chatting with ben about something sucky and out of nowhere i said 'shit cakes'. & I think it's a pretty darn cool expression therefore from now on, my new trademark shall be 'Shit Cake(s)' & I hereby, declare it to be mine. anyone caught using it shall banish to the deepest depths of the earth under my wrath. MUHAHAHA! =D lol just kidding. I'm bored & this entry is made just for fun. Chillos Shit Cakes my small talks
Thursday, May 7, 2009 @ 10:26 PM
i've been late for school practically every single day ever since school begun 2 weeks ago. OMG. bad bad. must learn how to stop lazing around in bed!! haha i've also been dropping my phone lately. The last fall it took was about 6 feet off the ground - while i was in the toilet. haha! I'm just glad it missed the unforgiving whirlpool of the toilet bowl by mere inches. xD everything came apart but miraculously i was still able to turn it on.. it's behaving a little weird when making calls though :X argh. have to be more careful with my poor phone. oh & i finally found the belt i've been looking for since i first saw it on a fashion magazine ages ago!! haha! well ok it's not exactly the same. just a look alike :| but who cares lah right! so long as they look the same wahaha! Hmmm mother's day is coming.. apparently i'm in a cold war with my mum.. over a week now i think? it was due to some small quarrel we had. but she's still my mum. i've got her something. i hope she likes it. School work is starting to pile up and i'm starting to feel the stress and pressure kicking in. I'll get more busy as the weeks come by. and that sucks. Because i'll have lesser time to chill with friends or even have any for myself. but oh well, it's the last semester. Shall see what i can do. huhu~ my little birthday
Tuesday, May 5, 2009 @ 12:03 AM
I can’t really describe what happened today.. it when by so quickly but I am plenty grateful. And simple words cannot express my gratitude. Sure it was simple; it didn’t even come exactly as a surprise. Neither was it a celebration nor a party with familiar faces. Yet it doesn’t matter. It was nice. Really nice. The concept of having ‘strangers’ encircling you, singing you your birthday song. Haha. Thanks Regina, Pamela, Teresa, Yong Kuang, Shili and everyone else (I msged Pamela asking for the names of the ppl involved but she has yet to reply back haha. I will include them in once I know! sorry!)  Nothing beats having friends that do care! =) Got the names! Plenty of thanks to Jane, Guo Wei & Marvin! heh =) The Ugly People
Saturday, April 25, 2009 @ 3:00 AM
Something unpleasant happened today. Although i was expecting it i was never quite preapared for it. So i busy myself writing this to keep my mind locked away. The picture might be a little disturbing to some but it conveys my feelings well. Hope it doesn't bother you too much a miss in time a miscalculation in faith a fault in loyalty a destiny decided mistakes amplified a thousand times over like beating hailstorms to mere rain a single decision a bounded consequence a lie after another and yet the stinging truth remains like an epidemic virus assiduously hunting you why me? why her? was it something we done or a simple mistake? a miss in time a miscalculation in faith a fault in loyalty a destiny decided retribution, fate or misjudgment in fidelity? as a mirage turns to reality only dolour is to be remained WHERE I STAND NOW
Tuesday, April 21, 2009 @ 1:18 AM
 maybe i'm not as good as i think i am. I don't 'know-it-all'. In fact, I'm really as clueless as everyone else or even more! So who am i kidding anyway. but of myself? So many things are yet to be figured and some hidden potentials to be found. Clearly I'm not quite there yet and I have no intention of giving up or out. I might fail but already have a couple of times and learnt that its part and parcel of the learning journey i chose to undertake. & now that i'm mindful of what i want, nothing shall stop me. not til the very end. nothing.. you'll never guess what i am talking about heh. So don't bother trying too hard! & don't feel bad because thats how it's suppose to be - to get you confused! :b this shall serve as a reminder to myself and hopefully when i see this again in the future i can gauge how much i've improved or none at all. GORDON Really needs your help =X
Wednesday, April 15, 2009 @ 11:22 AM
OK PEOPLE I REALLY NEED YOUR HELP NOW.IF U CAN BE SO KIND, PLEASE SPARE SOME TIME TO READ WHAT I'VE TO SAY BELOW AND LEAVE A MSG ON MY TAGBOARD. I’D REALLY APPRIECIATE IT EVERYONE'S FEEDBACK IS IMPORTANT TO ME!! THANKS!! Ok, so here's the thing. In a few months time, I might be eligible to go to Beijing on a school trip for 6 weeks. Unfortunately, it's not for a holiday, neither is it to built homes for the poor. If I do manage to make it there, it will be a kind of school exchange program. Now, that doesn't sound all that bad until the school I’ll be at is the Beijing Information Technology College. And for a solid 6 weeks, I’ll be doing nothing but programming and coding. Now, programming isn't exactly my gift. In fact I resent it as much as I avoid it. That’s the truth. And I admit it. But because of the perks that comes with it, including the such of heavily subsidised flight packages, good accommodation and weekends that are dedicated to touring all of Beijing, I am extremely hesitant. Not forgetting that going to Beijing in itself is an opportunity, it will shine in my resume. If I’m correct, only 20 people will be chosen to go. Of course I might be thinking too much as I might not be the one to go. But that doesn't matter. What does is my ultimate decision, when I’m given a chance, to take it or leave it. So, this is where your advice becomes a part of my final decision: Should I follow what my heart and instinct tells me, and skip this opportunity entirely; knowing it's not what I’ll enjoy doing and very likely be spending 6 weeks of hell in a foreign land or, Should I just go with all of my guts and teeth clinched? I actually asked one of my uncle regarding this matter months ago(yes. it’s been months :/ ) despite my half heartedness, he did make a good point as an older man. He said, ‘look, nothing in life is easy and you don't always have a choice. When you get out there(to work) if the company chooses to throw you in China, sometimes you don't even have a choice. Not forgetting that you might not enjoy what you're doing there as well. To add to that we're often talking about months maybe years. 6 weeks is nothing. And for the experience, connections you'll make and how it'll be reflected on your CV, you should definately go without thinking too much.’ :O :X  i'm a coward
Saturday, April 11, 2009 @ 12:57 AM
 not in the usual way people use the word; I find myself quite the coward because I never(dared) pursuit or satisfy my desires or dreams. never.
To be Yourself is to Love Yourself
Sunday, April 5, 2009 @ 1:14 AM
 I rock. whether you like it or not. LOL. I'm going to do it the new yorkers' way whether ppl here like it or not. ppl there behave the way they are. They rarely pretend to be who they're not. In other words they are very much themselves. With guys, girls and everyone alike. I see those guys in singapore, behaving so differently with girls and a group of guys-only. Why? i wouldn't deny that i used to be something along that line but now i'm changing. And i dare say for the better. I mean, why is there a need to be different? for what cause? to charm girls? C'mon if you're really awesome you can be yourself and still win girls the way you are when you're with the usual gang of guys. Oh and if the girl really likes you, she'll like you the way you are. no? let me give u a rather intriguing example. Although i guess most of u already know; and if you don't well.. read on. Here's the thing. Do you know that all guys are in truth, very lustful and superficial creatures? maybe even half their minds are spent thinking of girls. If a group of guy-only friends meet up. There's no one session girls wouldn't be a topic for the day. And radars will be turned on if they stroll down the streets of orchard, all by defualt. Thats how we're made & this i assure you. Unless of course, the guy of concern is gay. Trust me. Even the geeks from top-notch schools that you thought couldn't care less about girls are very likely, perhaps, the most lecherous. Like many others, they simply deny. why? thats just one point. There's still the entire issue of not being urself, character wise, behavior wise and the amount of coarse language used. by that i mean guys who severly tone down their vulagrities used with girls around. Well they still should. but in the first place they shouldn't be that vulgar for the matter.. I'm sick and tired of trying to be, different. heck. if a girl doesn't like me about something. I ain't going to change for who i'm worth. I have my own style and play. Although sometimes i do admit i get ahead of of myself, stray and let off the really ulgy side of me. then again thats all part of the real me. desire to change(or not) must come within me and not for the sake of another. Plus, don't they always say relationships are where both party truely understand and accept their other half? ;) SMILE
Wednesday, April 1, 2009 @ 11:54 AM
SMILE - IT CAN CHANGE THE WORLD AROUND YOU my mighty class
Monday, March 16, 2009 @ 2:16 AM
my mighty class
I just came back from the most successful gathering (many thanks to Jzeying & Edwin) I ever attended. That said, I thought it would be nice to do something different on my blog. Knowing that I suffer from self-declared STM (Short–Term Memory) I shall write something about everyone present today before I forget or get lazy.
Please do not attribute length with biasness; names are not in any particular order. There are also no hidden agendas or political motives. Enjoy the read. Just dun hate me in the end. lol. Wai Leong: Haha. What can I say about this fello. All I can say is from what I can gather off the memories I had in the old days. I probably dare say he and I had the craziest time together. Put it in another way, this is the guy I had the most fun and laughter with. I’ll never forget the harry potter broom thing that seems to be the only thing we could muster to make the gals in the class laugh.. we probably did a lot more together but thats the one I rmbed most vividly and u know why, I just said, becos it makes the gals laugh and ourselves look silly. Oh and Wai Leong, just dun ever get taller than me k. same height forever! Lol just kidding. Joshua: Joshua, Joshua, Joshua really lost contact with u.. I rmbed us heading over to the Toa Payoh south CC to play cs quite often yea? haha always having an extra shirt to wear over our school uniforms.. those were the days.. and I will always rmb u because u live in Kim Keat – where my old house was.. last time I knocked into u was probably back in sec 3? U looked abit ‘ah-bengish’ as I recalled. I was quite disappointed because I really have a thing with ah bengs.. lets just say I think they’re pest of the society and should be wiped clean off the earth. But I was wrong. Today I saw u, hair and stud.. still a bit ah-bengish but nah.. u were awesome. Nothing of you shows any signs of how an ah-beng behaves. Oh and did I also mention? I think u look really good now.. I bet the gals think so too. Perhaps u should ask some of them ;) Yun Wei: Awww u totally shoot me back in edwin’s place. What was that u said again? Something like ‘why u so interested in me’ or smth along that lines right after I started asking u a few questions? I was truly taken aback haha.. no joke and i never spoke to u much after that. Or did i? LOL heard of catching up? Haha. All I can say is please dun do that again to me or any other poor guys! Haha. U’ll scare all the men away! Haha! But u were really quiet today.. until when we started playing poker.. u unleashed ur inner prowess (although much was already shown when u shot me back in edwin’s place). Thanks for letting me copy all the Chinese spellings we ever had. I probably should curse and hate u for how terrible my Chinese is now but haha.. I probably wouldn’t survive without u back in school then.. somehow the other girls in class hated guys copying their answers. Everything else I rmbed abt u was pretty much summed up to: a really nice but quiet girl. And after today u’ll probably still stay that way in my mind. Just a little cold perhaps. yeap. nice, quiet but a little cold. that has to be no one else but u; or maybe i'm just scared of u now? :x Kah MOON (Jiamin): ok that’s edwin’s style. Kah MUN. first thing first. Like many of our other great friends we met today, I think u look much prettier now than in the past. I’m going to be honest here (because I’m not that nice a guy) but back in primary school I never really noticed u. Probably even said u were fat once or twice behind ur back? I think I can slap myself now. Or u can slap me with ur paddle/oar the next time we meet. Canoeing or was it dragon boat that u said u were in again? Whatever it is, I think you look really fine now! Tan, fit, and not overly muscular with shoulders broader than men or calfs bigger than elephants which is what most girls in ur CCA are like. I actually find them scary. U were quite quiet urself too. And why, why did u hid urself behind Patrina and not join us during poker! Haha. Anyhow, it’s really nice seeing u after all these year.. oh oh and thanks for the polar cakes! haha ps. Strawberry favoured swiss rolls from polar are one of my favourite snacks. *hint hint* for our next pot luck. HAHA :b Patrina: OOOH hi!!! Tell u a secret. But not going to be a secret anymore after I say it now. On the bus to Chuan Yue’s place Kenneth was seating next to me. And he said of all the girls the one that he found to have changed to become the prettiest was you. Heheh. @ Kenneth: u can kill me later but what I can say is.. nothing bad letting the girl know right? hope u don’t mind. But still, can kill me later too. To be honest, sadly perhaps. I dun remember much off u back in primary sch Patrina. Perhaps it’s because u only joined us in primary 6? (most of us were from 5H then 6H) we probably didn’t spoke much too. What a pity!! It’s really nice to get to see u today though.. you’re really easy to get along and can be really fun to be with as I found, just during our short poke game. Shawn: I think i used to hate u in primary school. haha! I can’t remember the reasons y now but all I can remember was that i didn't get along very well with u.. was it just me? Haha I can’t rmb!! but that’s way long in the past. I think you changed A LOT. & I guess u’re doing just fine! a nice girl friend, commitments to ur CCA.. things I yearn I can achieve. Haha. See u around ya! DO SAY HI if u knock into me in sch! I’m rather blur so do take the initiative! Haha! Berlinda: heys. Do take what I said about church invitations and Christianity etc. with a pinch of salt. haha. I’m not some anti-Christ or neither am I an atheist. Lets just say I’ve got so many invites to various churches and events that i now dread them and I do feel bad declining them. I mean I can’t possibly attend them all yea? And I’m tired of feeling guilty for not going or putting up some lies to avoid them. I’m sure this isnt the first u heard of. haha but ur performance.. I’d love to see!! I mean it’s something different.. and it’s hard to believe that the quiet and introvert Christopher will be performing too. But more particularly I’d be honoured to see YOU perform! Also about the pick-up lines thing? Don’t even worry about it. Because u shine in too many other areas that pick-up lines are not important anymore. You’re really gentle as I see, graceful in the words of what others might say. Grown up Guys out there will kill for gals like u. trust me. Anyway lets all meet up when school re-opens ; of cos that’s provided if u’re still working in nyp in April. Apple, Shawn, Diane. We should all have lunch tgt or something. Apple: Oh Apple. Do u recall my very 1st blog post? I mentioned something about apples and u asked me why. I said I’ll post another entry abt it another time but I never did. Haha here’s why – my connections with apples – I’ve been eating an apple a day (or almost every day) since what, primary 3?? Hard to believe yea? but it’s true. kind of like a habit I cultivated or rather one my mum forced upon me since I was little.. So apples.. are like an everyday thing all my life haha. Before u ask if it really kept the doctors away, I would say yea.. I fall seriously ill (fever etc.) only once in 3-4 years? haha!! ai.. anyw I dun have much to say about u. but I said so much about the others I guess I have to be fair to u huh? Haha. Well, we barely spoke in school, just the usual hi-bye but from what I see on ur blog, to be honest, I always thought of u as the ‘bad girl’, bad girl as in the types who club and club, have many guys chasing you at one time, flirt a lot - along that lines type of bad girl. Well I duno if it’s true, you tell me. xD true or not, nothing really wrong with that I guess. But who gives a shit anyway, u’re fun, u take jokes, u dress awesome, and u’re taller than me (are u?). haha ok no link on the latter. In anycase, dammmn lets club soon. Not really the drinker but I enjoy dancing, A LOT. But I seriously lack of clubbing friends.. most of them are the kbox or Chinese-sy Chinese-sy type haha. Oh and dun take offence for what I said above yea :| Jzeying: haha. U can really EAT! It’s almost scary! That’s all I can rmb off u today. Ok actually no, I rmb the lucky chicken wing. Now that u have it in ur tummy u’ll probably stay lucky until u visit the loo tmr? Ok that’s all I can say about u. moving on to the next person.. HAHA! Jus joking!! Omg. Haha so nice to finally meet u today! Still tall of course. And haha I bet gals are envious of u.. can eat so much yet not become fat fat. Haha! or is it becos u exercise? I wouldn’t know, in any case, it'd be awesome to meet both you, yihhuuaa and perhaps some others we both know one of these days. I think she would be delighted too. Hope to see u soon yea! haha. u and ur self declared ‘bitch’-partner ;D Grace: Hope this Gary is finally the right one. For both urs and all our sake. It’s really really nice for u to have sacrifice ur anniversary for our gathering. Really really nice. Of cos some credits go to ur bf for understanding. Perhaps that’s a sign that it’s finally the right gary? Haha. Well, if I’m wrong and he did get angry or take it on u, ditch him. LOL joking.. trust me any guy in his position would. So forgive him if he complains or bitch about u saying how could u blah blah. That said. I duno about the others but I do see some sadness in u today. Ok sadness is obviously the wrong word here. More like disappointed and in ponder. In other words u really really want to go off but yet u do not want to let us down. Especially after all of (I think u know we’re all just playing around and would have perfectly uds why u had to leave) us tried ‘forcing’ u to stay. SO all the more I would say, u’ll make a terrific friend, and an even greater girlfriend for many. The Gary u are with now and any future Garys should probably see this. lol Lawrence: haha. SMART ASS. Seriously truly envious. I want to steal ur brain!!! Haha oh and dun take it on us for calling u nerd here and nerd there. U’re just so smart and ‘on top’ we can’t think of a better nickname for u :b make us proud yea. invent some stuff, appear on newspaper. Anything. I just wana go OH HONEY (maybe I’m married by then kay) LOOK! *points fanatically on the papers* I KNOW THIS GUY!! HIE’S FROM MY PROMARY SCHOOOL CLASS!!! DAMN I KNEW HE WAS GOING TO APPEAR IN THE PAPERS ONE DAY. Haha OH and dun forget to treat us all when u get all rich and famous one day! xD Peter: I’ll be lying if I say I like you as a friend. But neither do I hate u. to me u are a true friend. We used to be so close during our primary school days even up til secondary school! Same tuition for years, we played tgt much too. but Why. Why did u start smoking, mixing with the wrong ppl.. I’ve tired warning u, vaguely and failed but it’s really ur life.. thats really nothing i can do to stop u. U know, some of our other friends (I ain’t going to say who) REALLY despise u. hate u. I’m not trying to make myself sound good but I always tell them this: ‘u dun really know peter. Knowing him for years, he’s actually a really good guy inside, whatever it is I believe one thing abt him, quite simply, he’s one that will never BETRAY his friends’ I’d usually tell them just that and no more. becos I think it’s true. Isnt it? I bet if I got into some trouble (although I doubt I ever will) I sure u’re come straight down, ‘save me’ and beat up all the bad guys. Which is so like u.. fighting, beating ppl up and all. U get the point.. So now I’m saying it in front of all primary school friends here. Becos I AM as a friend, really disappointed in you. But please. See the light, Change. Change for ur parents, for us. for me. I believe one day u will. And we can have kopi or have supper and maybe even hang out in the arcade again like old times? After all we both stay in toa payoh and will probably be all our lives as I see it. Be well. Sheng Da: I still can’t believe u pay thousands for facial!! Haha how I wish I had that much cash to burn. U’re rather quiet today compared to the last ‘failed’ gathering we had in NEW YORK NEW YORK huh! Haha. anyhow, to me, u’re still the cool dude. Like the cool dude u know. Haha I bet tons of gals think that way abt u anyway! And didn’t know u broke up! Haha always thought u were attached. Haha.. gonna say the same thing about u today as I did when I first added u on facebook, that is, I think u really know how to dress! Guess I’ve lots to learn and catch up to in the area of fashion haha! keep it up hah! The shuai ge of 6H! lolololol. Kenneth: haha. seriously I think we’ve been well in contact so I aint got much to talk abt u here cept that I wana ‘scold’ u. scold u for not meeting up more often!!! Pool. Lunchy, dinner whatever!! Haha oh oh u said u wana go jog/run? Rmb to ask me to tag alone yea! I want my sexy calf HAHA!! So I can look good in bems or shorts! Hehe. Not for NAFA, not for IPPT, not for army. But for my sexy calf. Huhu~ Kevin: hahahaha u u u u. fello maris… duno why every time we’ve nothing much to talk about. Haha but I rmb how u managed to trick/bluff me for years that George is ur cousin or smth.. wait. Are u both? shitttttt totally tricked la.. until now still duno. HAHA. meet up soon. With ken perhaps? Rock on! Chuan Yue: haha! I like ur dog!!! I love dogs!! Haha ok I sound like a gal for a moment but ahaha I nv really like Chihuahua from the start. I duno y. jus smth about how it looks perhaps but yours was different!! So tiny and friendly!! Haha and are u sure that it’s bias and prefer gals!! Haha it looked like it enjoyed my scratching a lot. Haha. and u said u had a gig somewhere? I think I should check it out one of these days.. I am a complete idiot when it comes to playing an instrument but MAN do I LOVE music. Speaking of which, u nv told me ur band name? I only know Yusuke. Haha. yes. Yusuke. Edwin: THE GUY THAT HAD A CAR ACCIDENT JUST LIKE ME. I duno about you. But I still have no fear or phobia whatsoever. Even felt some of the scratches I have on my back after the accident cool. Haha. childish yea. haha but hey! Maybe one day my girl friend will say the scars I have on my back makes me look manlier. LAWL. Ok I think too much. But hey that isn’t the point. Point is, I hope u dun have any phobias whatsoever. Cos that would suck. U know, like nightmares and shit? Hope u dun get any. Anyway it’s really nice to have us at ur place today. Although much of it was later in Yusuke’s place HAHA. thanks again tall guy. No I shall use ur full name, thanks again mr. tall-singletswearing-boxershowing guy. xD Ok I officially set a new record for the longest entry I ever made. Haha and I thought my previous record was long. This can make a short story. Anyw I had uber-ly lotsa fun today. I’m sure all of us did. Let this gathering be the beginning of more gatherings to come and a hint to the people who missed it to regret for not coming. Haha. let’s also hope our next will be an even greater success. Amanda, Diane, Sabrina, Jazzy, Leonard, Andrew, Tian Wei, Teng Zhe and all the others.  HERE’S TO 6H. Chillos! & love ya’ll forever!! what happened today?
Wednesday, March 11, 2009 @ 2:00 AM
 well, after a few random clicks here and there I chanced upon some pictures of.. well.. erm.. nvm Wait. i have to say it, if not this entry would have been pointless now wouldn't it? Shit. Why did i even sign in to blogspot. ok fine. I shall continue. So, as i was surfing around the net today i chanced upon some pictures of... of.. the 1st crush i have in my poly. yepp. SO WHAT u might say. I think so too. but u know, i just gotta say it out.. she looks DROP DEAD gorgeous in those pictures.. She never dresses so vividly to school. not that i really notice but in those pictures.. she's simply dazzling. The best part is she doesn't try too hard to look good in them.. photogenic i guess? so i have this very sudden thought of contacting her.. telling her just how F.A.B.U.L.O.U.S shes looks but thats shallow man. i'll probably be written off as a despo or stalker or somewhere along that lines, then ignored. And i've made enough dumb/wrong moves before so nah. wouldn't take unnecessary risks which reminds me. I did really wanted to get her number in school once. what stood in my way was that the day before i was to do just that i saw her with her boyfriend (i didn't know) while walking out of school. After that.. well, after that i kept playing james blunt's 'you're beautiful' over and over again on my train back home. I'm pretty sure i had it looping well over 10 times. yea... i definately felt like feces that day. who wouldn't? so point is. that was my 1st crush in poly. i thought it was over. but now I think it's coming back and I don't even know her name. but err it's just a crush right? DARN. in GAY
Thursday, February 26, 2009 @ 1:30 AM
I am still in the state of disbelieve; disbelieve that my exams & sufferings are really over. it's a strange happiness. While i was studying i could list an entire chunk of things i wanted to do so badly and now thats it's finally over, i constantly found myself sitting at my desk, staring at the screen going, 'now what?' it's not that i have nothing to do but instead, i've got SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many things to do that i duno where to begin! but thats the least of my concern. All i know is that i have a solid one and a half month break ahead of me. just IMAGINE. Imagine the freedom.. screams: I AM A FREE MAN BABEH!! WAHAHAHA!!! LOL alright i better stop before ppl think i'm crazy and decide to stop reading my blog. hmm.. lets talk abt today. Acutally i just came back from RJ's place... Wiied and majonged.. as usual, my hand hurts like hell now... stupid wii... oh oH and i also concluded that i can't play majong for nuts just as i really hate gambling.... maybe its becos i keep losing xD ahahaha but no really.. i was brought up from a family that doesn't bet or gamble the tiniest bit. dad and mum are really nerds. so i became a good boy too ^^ so yea.. i had been pretty much busy ever since my last paper & have plans every single day for the week ahead !! a good sign i must say! haha.. but that also means i'll go bankrupt sooner or later.. :x oh and i'm quite amazed at myself.... despite february being the exam month i suprisingly still managed to get my monthly fix of movies!! haha only proves how much i slacked eh? in all i managed to catch, benjamin buttons, valkyrie and Slumdog millionaire then i'm going to catch his not that into you this saturday and potentially one tmr when i'm out with jared. LOL. movies movies and more movies!!! HAHA. ok i should so totally shut up. i've never really written this way before as u can see from the above... full of grammical mistakes and speeling errors. and why? becos i am in a completely relaxed state now. be jealous. everything is word for word straight out of my head right now. you can't get anymore original than that! =D okk i should really shut up. stupid hands just cant stop typing away.. must be the happy fingers.. oooooooooooooooooooooooooOOk pics. shall let the pics do the talking, 
Kirsch. 40% achocol. Can't believe i had it right after a jog. Usually people take, isotonic drinks or holy water. i had shots. yep. u guessed it right. Became thristy as hell an hour later. haha stupid stupid me.
Studying at the airport with Yong Ann! aka silva boy! haha becos he couldnt stop drooling when he had his teeth braces on. but that was long in the past now xD but i admire him.. look at his smile. Gosh. he had a paper the next day and he's all smiley. I was:
Grumpy and disturbed. haha. wrote that on his notes. thankfully he didn't kill me for it. He didn't even kill me when i dropped his brandnew iphone. haha how smart of me. and how nice of him :b
 AHH this one i have to take.. it's the meann green mint, mint water. yeap. from hot tomato plaza sin. Wei Wen was stupid enough to pay 2 bucks for a few stalks of leaves and boiled water. And the presentation was epic fail... they could have at least stuff a cut lemon at the top to make the drink more... like a drink. So i had the honour of dunking the lemon for my fish and chips into it. Again i didn't get killed. Wei Wen said i turned his drink from bitter to sour. i suppose the latter is better..
 Metha(mint) leaves...... 100% mint drink that turns out bitter. hmm...
 Then I spotted this in Starbucks. See anything wrong with it?? I did in an instant. It's the HEART PICTURE YO!! i was telling WW how classy the chalk board was.. the colours..the basket.. so sex la.. then the stupid heart they drew the real biological version. why cant they jus draw a simple and lovely <3
this valentine's day
Saturday, February 14, 2009 @ 12:37 AM
this valentine's day  You know, I realised that as i'm making some new friends, I'm slowly drifting apart from my older ones.. even those that i was once really close to. Is it genuinely because ppl are busy or is that just another stupid reason ppl come up with to avoid meeting up? might it be because neither party felt there was anything beneficial left about the friendship? friendships are about love, trust, fun and laughters not benefits isn't it? Have you ever thought about that? how much u truely value your friends, the reasons why and your beliefs? In any case i'd like the school to take some of the blame. All the projects.. the tests & now the coming exams... their taking so much of my time i'm barely left with any for myself less say for meeting up with friends So i'm going to say this over valentine now. I'm NOT going to work this upcoming holiday. Instead, I shall be dedicating it to re-establishing old ties. For valentine's day is about friendships too..
no music no life
Thursday, February 12, 2009 @ 10:28 PM
NO MUSIC NO LIFE dear valued readers,i apologise but i have to use the f word again in such a short time. I therefore highly recommend that if u have a younger sibling or if ur parents are near you, now's the time to ask them to MOVE ALONG Ready? ok. scroll down now. FUCK I just spent one of the most miserable, tutorious, dreadful, horrible whatever u can think of 50mins of my life. My bleedy handphone died on me today. 50mins from Changi Aiport to Toa Payoh without MUUUUUSEEK!!! OMG. i literally died on the train today... i when from groomy(Tenah Merah) to black(City Hall) to zombie(Toa Payoh). get it? I think i should really fucking start studying.
@ 1:01 AM
I think i should really fucking start studying. x.x OMMG
Monday, February 9, 2009 @ 11:31 AM
OMMG I CAN DRIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooohuu~!! orgasmic man. haha I only got 8 points this time round. hehe *grins* so now I get to cancel off two of the items listed under my Wanted List ------------------------------------------------> haha the other one is my phone. the sexy LG Renior. heh. Been using it for more than a month now actually I'm so happy that i want to randomly hug people. wahaha! remember to look out when u're on the streets yea! u nv know.. u might just see me zooming pass u in a car now. HAHA ;) What a smile can do
Monday, February 2, 2009 @ 1:22 AM
What a smile can do  To be really honest i don't really read people's blog. not unless their post is interesting. call me choosy but i take my pick. i dun mind long lengthy posts becos i realised the longer ones are usually more meaningful. maybe becos when its long it means people actually put more thoughts into it? BUT i really like picures. Especially those of happy smiling faces. don't you think it's nice? it's almost like u can feel the joy in some of them.. sometimes i even feel jealous of those that, even given the hard times, with work, school or other problems but still manage to pull such a warm, pleasant smile.. one i doubt could be fake. becos u can tell. how do they do it?? its almost magic.. what a smile can do. i should really smile more too... unfortunately thats a little bit difficult for a person like me.. i get upset wayyyyyy too easily - make my day will you? because i want to give u the brightest smile u'll ever see :) arrogance diminishes wisdom
Sunday, February 1, 2009 @ 4:46 PM
Arrogance Diminishes  I always find the foreword in any Star Wars movies and shows very meaningful; in fact i was just watching episode 15 of the clone wars last nite and wow wow, I think it's the best line since, short and sweet, it goes "arrogance diminishes wisdom". I know i know it sounds all confuciusy rigght! maybe it's a quote from the Man himself.. who knows.. OK back to my story, that line hit me real hard or at least hard enough to make me feel like blogging. haha. the thing is, it seems to make complete sense to me becos, i happen to fall in that catergory. Of cos thats for u to judge. but i know i am arrogant in many ways.. It even says so under my horoscope! that Taurus are aggressive, stubborn, fight for what they want and can be annoying at times. haha.. dun worry i didnt remember that off my head.. not a horoscope nerd(not saying it's any wrong though) I jus read them off the papers ocasionally becos i find them quite entertaining. In any case i copied and paste the above off an email. just tag me if u want it ;) i'm not going to use that as an excuse though, i'm going to change!! yes like mr obama. i call for change!! or at least i'll try.. haha - to become a arrogant free gordon. anyway had great fun in wei wen's place on friday. Meet some awesommee new friends, and caught up with old ones alike haha. sadly, no pics :/ oh and yes yes, that chinese word above is part of my chinese name, qi ZHI. which literally translates to rise in wisdom or along that line... ^-^ finding that purpose
Wednesday, January 28, 2009 @ 11:59 PM
finding that purpose. one of my friend told me not too long ago that she found blogging.. strange.. contradictary.. why write personal feelings down for the world to see she said. Then there's the personal blog.. where one write for their own eyes only.. but i can never quite get myself to do that.. becos i feel thats like keeping a diary... and i find it.... well, perhaps girly? in any case if i really HAVE to write a personal diary i'll much prefer the traditional hardcopy, solid leather dairy thing over a blog. so you might ask, whats the bloody point i'm trying to get to? You see, things have been running in my head for days now.. the cny period has slowed my life down to the right motion - after weeks after weeks of beating (which i have now resumed to) - During the short two days, i had plenty of time to think.. and i realised (as for those who have me on ur facebook) that i am not happy with my current life at all.. but of all things.. i'm most dissapointed at myself.. for many reasons.. which i cannot say.. do u see where i'm getting to now? i feel like shouting out. yet i cant.. because if i do.. everyone will know my story and the little mystery will be lost.. and if i do share my story.. people might get hurt if they ever read it and i know they do, which makes it even more scary will it really help to write ur thoughts down to urself? if u're a keeper of a diary.. pls enlighten me... and then maybe, maybe i'll visit a old book shop to get myself a leather crusted diary..
in any case, I know there are ppl out there that still care. Thank You. Don't worry it's actually not life threatening. i'm not about to go sucidal.. oh and for those ppl that are ever so curious, no, it's no about love.. i dun brood over that.. if it doesn't work it doesn't. It's something else.. maybe one day you'll know.. Wishing all a Happy CNY!
@ 1:04 AM
Wishing all a Happy CNY! *coughs coughs* my worse new year yet.
Thursday, January 22, 2009 @ 2:39 AM
my worst new year yet. 4 projects. none completed. 3 presentations. none ready. 2 test. none prepared. 1 week. to complete them all. what chinese new year? i don't know what i want
Tuesday, January 20, 2009 @ 1:26 AM
just watched the movie, Vicky Cristina Barcelona as a break for my extremely long and tiresome weekend spent on projects. The movie is about love triangle or rather love rectangle. And how one may realise she might just be bisexual (lol yea. i know) and how much so the Americans are open to it as well as how forgiving friends are (bet u must feel like watching this movie now). most of all however, what i got out of this firm was that things in life isn't always about what you wanted but what you love. In the movie it was portrait as how Vicky's betrothed is all about what she always hankered for.. what she always wanted.. a husband with a bright future and a pleasant but predictable life but she realised after a one night love affair with a Spaniard that she was about to make the gravest mistake of her life. This sounds all confusing because want supersedes need in every way but you see, love, love is more than just the mere wants. It is not something you can construe with tangible yearnings like for Vicky's case a stable husband and a secured future. In any case, now that i've watched the movie, i begin questioning myself. Not in love, but what have i been doing up till now. As it goes, it's not about what you want but what you love. Am I studying because i want to get into a local university or is it because i love studying? & what is it that i love anyway? I saw an angel in the train today
Friday, January 16, 2009 @ 2:47 PM
 I saw an angel in the train today| gordon kicks ass
Wednesday, January 14, 2009 @ 6:36 PM
Friday - 9th Janape about upon realising that i'll be having 4 tests in 2 days Saturday - 10th Jan brood over whats coming & the sulky weather didn't help Sunday - 11th Jan fell sick. Monday - 12th Jan exhausted and dying Tuesday - 13th Jan Dead Wednesday - 14th Jan Came back to life becos i kicked ass in all the 4 tests ;)   euthanasia. what?!
Tuesday, January 6, 2009 @ 1:04 AM
Euthanasia. What?! Can't believe i have to do a presentation on it for my business communication project. I read the news - well i try to. and when i do i usually read everything from politics to sports but very little on health, medical sciences and certainly not anything to do with deaths like euthanasia. call me old fashion, but topics such as these do not interest me. Plus, euthansia in particular is such a controverse topic.. i don't suppose there will be a conclusion to it even in the next millennium. The presentation which is in two weeks time will take the form of a debate. i was chosen (by drawing of lots) to be in the team that is in support of euthanasia!! oh man!! it's not like i have a strong stand against it, i believe there's no real right or wrong.. however if u were to ask me now, i suppose i'm more inclined to say i'm against it ..and probably will always be it's going to be really tough trying to bluff my way through a debate where i have opposing view to my own side. sheeshes. what's ur take on euthanasia? - anyway, something totally of another page, i realised that i am as guilty a person of prejudice as i am a victim of it. I noticed that sometimes i disparage about people i barely know behind their back, making judgement from only what i see and not feel. I think i should give them a chance to redeem themselves.. haha i know.. still sound like an asshole but arghz you know, some people you just hate so much!! for whatever reason there is to be.. at least i'm opening myself up for newer prespective! :S new year resolution?
Monday, January 5, 2009 @ 2:16 AM
New Year Resolution
HO. these sounds like an awful lot to me happpy new year 2009
Saturday, January 3, 2009 @ 12:21 AM
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008
It was made on the very first line. i only remembered after i submitted the paper i've got a confession..
Monday, December 29, 2008 @ 12:34 AM
i've got a confession to make. 
i seem to get something new everytime i'm out nothing wrong with that right? please tell me it's not wrong. haha the fact that i'm going bankrupt is. and i'm no rich kid plus i can't claim a single penny from my parents not like i don't want to. but it has got to be from my own pocket thats what dad said and mum taught me huhu. how sad =/ any donors? what i'm thinking right now
Sunday, December 28, 2008 @ 1:12 AM
i am either really stupid. or just too nice. yep. Merry Christmas
Thursday, December 25, 2008 @ 2:15 AM
 I wanna wish everyone i know a merry merry christmas. and i hope santa will answer to all my wishes.. lots to look out for the year ahead. Hope it'll be mighty fun and full of laughter love ya'll :] youtube vids
Monday, December 22, 2008 @ 11:20 PM
i want a grey jeansi want a white jeans i want a new belt i want a pair of loafers more shirts and a new bems So, who wants to go shopping with me! anyway i've got some uberly awesomee videos to share with u ppl. make sure u watch all of them! Penguins Can FLY - this one's really hilarious. cute too. Speeding Saves Lives - yep. I'm damn sure abt it after i watched this Real Men Drive Like This - Drift King babeh. ;)  My Supper and there shall be love
Wednesday, December 17, 2008 @ 12:46 AM
Love is always patient and kind it is never jealous Love is never boastful or conceited it is never rude or selfish it does not take offense and is not resentful..
clue: Mandy Moore was the lead actess in it dinner
Friday, December 12, 2008 @ 2:21 AM
Dinner ok a big pack of paprika favoured potato chips and a beef favoured cup noodles full of msg isn't exactly my most idea dinner. but, then again, i'm too lazy to get my ass out to get a proper dinner. hmm :/ oh and since we're at food,
here’s my favourite chocolate in white u can't find it in singapore and now it’s in my tummy! so be jealous k? ^-^ I keep losing things
Tuesday, December 9, 2008 @ 12:05 AM
I keep losing things from something as small as a thumb drive to something as big as my 600+ bicycle. But then again i guess it's still better than people losing their boyfriend or girlfriend. Hope i'll never have to lose that! anyway, i've got a 'new' song on my blog! yay! Some people who fiddle around with anything that they can possibly click on my blog might already have found out. haha. It's an old song but a really beautiful piece. 1987, U2 -I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For. hope u guys like it too as much as i do ASS
Wednesday, December 3, 2008 @ 9:34 PM
ASS my assholic friend is like traveling seemingly all of Europe.. and everytime he comes online he will tell me where he is.. Paris... Rome..... OMG!!! super jealous! & here i am rushing for all my due submissions. fart man. haha ok i sound so bad. but hey! at least i didn't curse he'll die in an air crash or get crushed as the leaning tower of Pisa falls over him *rolls eyes* What a Suay Day
Tuesday, December 2, 2008 @ 2:16 AM
What a Suay Day
edit: yep. i screwed up the prac test. uherr Silly me
Friday, November 28, 2008 @ 12:11 PM
Silly me  I realised the toothache I’ve been living with the past 3 days had been caused by a tiny shred of apple skin stuck in between my teeth. hoooo. all that worrying for nothing. - Lina screamed out of the blue while we were walking to our class today.. she yelled, “Gordon!! Your zipper!!” & I scampered to have a look down below It was zipped. Then they started laughing They meant the zip on my laptop pouch.. >< - Anyway, RJ shared a new joke with me! what’s the heaviest noodle on earth? Leave ur answer on my tag board ;) Gordon is feeling grumpy.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008 @ 2:23 AM
Gordon is feeling grumpy. I can't appease to everyone. Some people i just have to let be. If there is no harmony then there will only be abiding blitz.
u'll be in army soon. anyway... i have so many ppl to catch up with.. & the worst part is i have no idea when i can. i really miss everyone. sigh.. Believe.
Friday, November 21, 2008 @ 11:56 PM
Believe.
on the train
Thursday, November 20, 2008 @ 5:24 PM
Saw a guy rocking his head in the tune of music on my train home today. his mp3 player was on one hand and the earphones was held in the other. Amusing. He must have forgotten to place them in his ears. Sunday, November 16, 2008 @ 10:14 PM
Gordon is Hungry.
p.s. dear valued readers, if u're ever going to go out with me, do bring along some snacks in case i get hungry ok? luncheon meat
Wednesday, November 12, 2008 @ 11:58 PM
Gordon is contented.  You know those sudden cravings? No, I don’t have pms. But I guess I can perfectly understand how girls feel now. Had this random craving for luncheon meat since weeks ago. I think I haven’t eaten it for over a year?! Mum is having this “eat-only-healthy-food” campaign and I have to suffer along.Well, I finally had it over dinner. GOSH. I swear food taste better when you haven’t had them for such a long time. The first bite.. that taste of familiarity... ah......... the luncheon meat melting in my mouth. Oh so Heavenly! LOL. Hope it’s not overly exaggerated. Waha
Bathing makes you sleepy.
Monday, November 10, 2008 @ 6:41 PM
Bathing makes you sleepy. Whoever says bathing energises you, help keeps you awake or refresh your senses are retards. I swear they must be reading it straight off the label.. I have solid prove that bathing makes you sleepy! haha. I've since changed my body soap from "lavender" (which seems to have the magical property of knocking you out everytime you use it) to "Energising Citrus" and guess what? I'm still feeling sleepy everytime i walk out of the bathroom! I swear it's the soap man. Can i sue companies for giving wrong discriptions of their products? It clearly says "HELP KEEPS YOU FEELING ENERGISED" but i think it's more like "THE PERFECT SOLUTION TO INSOMNIA"! sleeeep -.- btw, I will glady give anyone a million dollars for inventing an auto man-drying machine. Sometimes i feel so lazy to even dry myself. If they can create a hand dryer, a clothes dryer(dry wash) why not a man dryer? =/ complains to the world.
Friday, November 7, 2008 @ 10:41 PM
me to the world. me: nothing ever work out perfectly as you want, does it? world: me: =/ An Eventful F1 Season
Wednesday, November 5, 2008 @ 11:09 PM
An Eventful F1 Season It’s true when they say a championship is won over a season and not one race. Then again, if it wasn’t for the two retirements in the first two races this season and the catastrophic fuel hose incident at Singapore, Massa could have well been leading the way on the leader board. On Monday, Hamilton affirmed Massa’s bad streak by taking away the World Championship from him. To me, Felipe Massa is equally or more deserving of the Championship than Lewis Hamilton. It was a one point win, made possible by Timo Glock losing grip of the Toyota at the last lap; giving heads for Hamilton to overtake and securing the fifth place he needed for the win. Hamilton has skills but he clearly lacks experience. What he knows about winning to driving is nothing compared to the other veterans on track. But most of all it is his lack of composure and cloying arrogance that clouds peoples’ perception of him. The win is his this year but will he win again? I’m afraid to say that if he doesn’t change before the next season that’s highly unlikely to happen. LUCK doesn’t come twice.
1. Felipe Massa
 The rivalry.  So close yet so far.. but a true sportsman indeed.  Alonso. my man.  Will be looking forward to next year's Singapore GP! Massa or Hammy
Monday, November 3, 2008 @ 1:00 AM
Massa or Hammy?
heh my hse
Sunday, November 2, 2008 @ 3:24 AM
 the finger. the darn finger  err.. nvm.  jus look at that grinning face!!  swear i haven't touch the Jenga for a decade Topic Thunder
Wednesday, October 29, 2008 @ 10:46 PM
 Napped for 3hours straight! Haven’t slept this long for some time. woke up in a daze and had dinner right away while I was still seeing stars.. and there was my dad talking none stop over dinner. Like gosh.. so irritating!!! I can barely lift my head and the first thing I wake up to is to listen to his grumbling and same old stories! My face was literally turning red even without wine. So much the urge to shut my dad up and just getting back to sleep! haha. I must sound really bad now. but HEY! As the saying goes a sleepy man is an angry man. Don’t believe? Try waking your sibling, partner or someone you know when they are in deep sleep! I’m positive u’ll get screamed at or a beating Anyway, went out with Shu Qing, Leo, Johnathan and Tidus today. Feel bad for Cheryl "who was a directionless, wandering soul (in her own words)" because I never accompanied her. Haha. sorry!! we had pepper lunch for lunch(lol it rythmes). Like AGAIN for me. SQ and Leo wanted to watch High School Musical 3 badly but Johnathan was in full denial. I was kinda neutral. Personally I like the music but the previous movies were kinda stupid, dumb and silly (ok wait. they all have the same meaning). Basically I’m in for the music which I find, well, well-composed.. but suddenly dancing in the middle of a baseball match or a basketball game is just too WTF to me. I reckon the movie is more for kids and girls Ended up convincing, or rather ‘brain-washing’ Tidus, Leo and SQ into watching Topic Thunder instead (oh I just remembered! they didn’t hav a choice either. HSM3 was sold out! wahaha) Topic Thunder is a funny shit show with an all star crew like Ben Stiller, Jack Black and a erm.. black Robert Downey Jr. haha. "It's Vietcong! There is no ‘s’ it's already plural. You wouldn't say ChineseS..." lol... You really have to watch the movie to understand what I’m saying. ;)  Shu Qing and I got a whooping 332pts in the 1st round!! Guess we make a great team xD  and then all is lost. Leo and I only managed to Gordon's Life plan
Sunday, October 26, 2008 @ 11:13 PM
Gordon & his Bucket List :]
Thursday, October 23, 2008 @ 10:22 PM
hoho. Scary eyes. --- Anyway, Der was one of the privileged beta tester of the new msn. Heard it's pretty cool. Here's a shot of it:
tell me
Tuesday, October 14, 2008 @ 1:03 AM
tell me will you?
I hate rich ppl
Sunday, October 12, 2008 @ 1:06 AM
I Hate Rich People.  Ok i don't exactly hate rich people. After all I wanna be one one day. But what I do hate is the rich people's kido. Especially those who're downright spoilt. They irritate me. Maybe i'm jealous. It's true. but i guess it's human nature. seeing these people - who are very often no older than me - already driving big cars and stuff like that turns me off. They also have this innate tendency to show off? absolute blazon. How much i'll love to give each and everyone of them a punch in the face sometimes. man.. earn the right to show off. If u didn’t pay a single penny for it, don't flash it like a new toy mommy just got u of cos there’re the humble ones.. but those are like so rare?! For the record, i'm not pin-pointing anyone. Just something i noticed and wanna rant about. Not just cars, but it applies to everything from behavior to attitudes . Oh and i also hate those leechers? i wonder if daddy goes poor one day he'll have any friends left. So u got my message rich kids. Learn to eat dirt and feed urself because you can't leech on your parents all ur life sg boring
Friday, October 10, 2008 @ 11:47 PM
Singapore is boring. 
Seriously, what can we do in Singapore! Shop. Eat. Movie. Pool. Bowling. Clubs. Pubs. Muesuems?? lol?! no moutains for me to scale. no trails for me to trash my bike. no lakes to meander. no countryside to roam. no forest to trek. no snow to have snowfights. But most of all no room to explore. They say it will take you more than 30 years to explore every single part of China. I reckon it will take u no more than 30 days to figure Singapore. Maybe 3 days is more than sufficient. So much for 'uniquely Singapore'. my holidays is coming to an end
Tuesday, October 7, 2008 @ 10:25 PM
holidays all come to an end..
I mess it up  Anyway, my holiday is coming to an end.. Sastisfied? Not really. never accomplished what i set out to do. Learn something new. loss something old. Met new friends. visited new places. but still the same old me. Been fun. could have been better. Congrats to Alanso & Kudos to Massa
Monday, September 29, 2008 @ 10:42 PM
Congrats to Alonso & Kudos to Massa  Massa, who was leading the race drove off the pit with the fuel line still attached to his Ferrari F2008 and later serving a penalty that cost him precious time and eventually the race. It was later found that it wasn't his fault but one of his crew member who gave the green light (a signal to go off) when the fuel line is not yet safely removed. Not only was he leading but everyone including professionals predicted the match to be his. Most would think Massa would be cursing and swearing away at his misfortune but nope. Not only was he cool, this is what he said to the pit crew member who gave the wrong signal: "These things happen. We are all human beings. Everybody makes mistakes. I am not the kind of guy who goes to the guy and fights with him" "...So I went to the guy and gave him even more motivation because we need him and we need everybody together for the last three races of the season." He earned my respect. Solid Sportsmanship. His loss is really BIG. From 1 point behind Hamilton to 7 point. The outcome of the Singapore night race could very well cost him to lose his one chance to win this year's championship! So yep really a pity. Anyway Alonso won. No one would have thought he would win the race. I mean from 15th to 1st!! That only happens in like what? 1 in 10 races? But I'm supremely happy BECAUSE I WAS ACTUALLY ROOTING FOR HIM SINCE DAY ONE! When his crappy Renault R28 died on him on Saturday’s qualifying match it seems as though all hope was lost. But LOL not only was I wrong but everyone else. Truly a bless in disgust. I guess miracles do happen. Let’s hope Massa will do well in the last three races this season. I’ll be praying hard for him. As for Alonso, my star, all I can say is he’s got the skillz man. I mean c’mon, 2 championship title, and now the first ever night race - If only his luck was better or if he was driving for the red team or a Mclaren. Although teamwork plays a huge role in F1 and driver’s skill count (which he obviously has), ultimately the car’s reliability matters most, and Renaults sucks. I reapeat. Renault sucks.  Better luck next time Ferrari!   having flat foot sucks
Sunday, September 21, 2008 @ 3:56 AM
having flat foot sucks Never really complained about it until i finally realise how much it can hurt. Makes me jealous of ordinary people with normal feet. I also fear i won't be able to excel when i enter NS - i want to aim for SSPEC at the minimum. all this time i have been bluffing myself that my feet hurts only due to long hours of standing (when i was working in G2000 and in Sim Lim Square). It was not until my most recent job as a waiter did i realise it was actually just me. I came to my conclusion after asking 10 odd people if their feet hurts at the end of the day (including girls). Most of them said no or only a little. Mine hurt like hell. I just kept quiet because I thought everyone was suffering the same as me. For all the fortunate folks who have ‘normal’ feet; reading this entry now and wondering. All i can say is, damn you, you lucky ass. It really sucks to have flat foot. After standing for 12 hours the feeling i get is as though i just wore a pair of shoes 3 size too small for a days. This tight feeling and unbearable sharp pain is *^~$!*&%#! it even hurts when i'm seated (and typing this nonsense..) Work is fine. Tiring, a bit brainless ( i hate brainless jobs) and dirty. but most of the people i'm working with are nice people and i strongly believe that’s the most important aspect of any job. Will be looking forward to the remaining 3 days of work - besides the flat foot problem Shall continue bluffing myself. Wednesday, September 17, 2008 @ 10:52 AM
Weeeeeeeee I love the Wii  I finally exercised. Yep I did. Not in the pool nor under scorching sun but by playing Wii. RJ kindly invited us over to his place to try out the new Wii he got. And man.. was a cool toy. We had tons lot of fun playing tennis, boxing, golf, baseball, swimming and so many others that I can barely remember. Not forgetting the moments we thought Derrence was going to swing his punch right on to TV and RJ’s comical moves. However, we weren’t spared from sweating despite being indoors and having a huge fan blowing directly at us. Just as it was tremendous fun, it was tremendously tiring.. It has since been a full day and the muscles on my arm still feels like jelly (guess that’s what you get for NOT exercising in ages) all thanks to the fanatical shaking of the controller for almost 4 hours non-stop >.< Heh. Now I am starting to have thoughts of getting not just the PS3 but the Wii as well; so a lazy bum like myself can no longer find an excuse to not exercise. A free workout while having fun at the same time in the comfort of one’s home. How cool is that! ..and RJ, your porridge rock! ;) holidays are great
Tuesday, September 9, 2008 @ 11:48 PM
Holidays are great & always welcomed IKEA!! yupps that where i when with jared last saturday.. We decided it was my treat as he helped me dye my hair. Been wanting to get a mirror from IKEA since my last trip. Sadly, in the end i still didn't got any. wahaha.. ended up getting a hook ass instead! serious!! i got something called a hook ass! it's printed there on the reciept! Lovely name for a lovely product... I will review what it is to u if u be a good boy/gal and keep reading on :D  seriously have no idea what Jared is doing here. he claims he's making musical tunes. i think it jus looks wrong. but oh well, let the man enjoy himself while he's at it.. hehe  ok. besides all the cofy sofas and chairs we tried on and didn't wan to get our butts out of, this is one of the 'not-so-comfortable-to-sit-on' things which caught my eye... The hole u see is for u to throw in ur used laundry!! SIMPLY BRILLIANT. jus something a lazy Gordon needs. i was bragging what an amazing invention it was until Jared broke my bubble by saying it looks like a toilet bowl. good point. but nevertheless still a superb invention, sometimes if i'm lazy to drag my feet to the toilet to poo poo i can jus do it... erm.. ya i think u got me :b  AHA! the hook ass i was talking about earlier! hehe.. now u know what it is.. i got it so i could hook my enormous headphone. I'm glad i got it.. if not otherwise it would have been my 2nd trip down to IKEA leaving empty handed. The darn mirror is jus too big. i will look stupid carrying it up on a bus. and i was too bankrupt to take a cab after i treated..... lol jkjk  Last but not least i had dinner with Jiu Siang! the hairy god! rmb the cute foto where i dressed him as superman? (scroll way down). yep thats him. I think he's trying to break some record of smth.. he ordered two extra servings of fries.. and mind u.. if u ever ate botak jones, it's infamous for it's generous serving of fries. and there u have, mr jiu siang asking for more. Crazy. but also good la.. cos i managed to steal some.. ^^ Friday, September 5, 2008 @ 11:30 PM
looks like i'm not as talented in driving as i thought i might be.Yupp. I'm currently attending driving lessons. I had five lessons so far but apparently i still haven't got my basics right - clutch control. It's quite humiliating to stall the vehicle over and over again beside the instructor. If it were a test i would have failed more times than you can count. Oh, and not forgetting that it’s embarrassing too!! For those who don't know much about cars, when a vehicle stalls it has the tendency to bounce up and down. So yea.. not jus the instrutor but everyone outside of it will know as well :S All the instructors i had before today were really nice. Today's however, was.. eh... very blunt. Not like he scolded me or anything but he's really direct. Seriously felt the pressure with him - only making matter worse actually - the added pressure only equal to more mistakes. LOL! yes yes. laugh at me >.< maybe the old saying of ‘having a little pressure is good’ makes sense.. i never really learned from my mistakes with the previous few 'too nice' instructors i enjoyed. haha anywae i finally got the hair colourant/dye i've been intending to get. It says 'intense dark burgundy'. Basically it's a really dark shade of red and brown. Hopefully the result turns out exactly as the print on the box.. The last thing i want is too look like some clown with bright red hair!  Burgundy. My soon-to-be hair colour! :D I can fly.
Sunday, August 31, 2008 @ 11:02 PM
I Can Fly. gosh so glad the exams are over. my long deserved break is finally is here. I am proud to say that I really studied this time round. Lets hope my effort pays off. The few days after my last paper were really crazy. Been out every single day. But the one that I have to mention was Friday. Sherman, Der and I decided to pay our teachers a visit back at the old hill top school we so loved. It was teachers' day. Little did we expect, we saw Shane! (one of our classmate) and man was he tall.. I guess there still stand some chance of me growing taller after 18. I mean just look at Shane!!! 19 and still growing >.> anyhow, we also knocked into Kevin Ng and Sing Chang (another two of our classmates).. sweet... All our teachers seem fine.. we got to see most of our teachers but it was a pity I didn't get to see one of my favorite teacher, Miss Foo (cos she once gave me Kinder Buneo ^^). DK still has his sense of humor intact.. haha. It's funny how we can joke and make fun of our once Discipline Master. Good days man. Good days. I believed all of us left school fulfilled. However, that wasn’t the end for me. Headed to Kovan for our lunch and a game of pool. And then off again to raffles city to meet up with Mr. Jared Tan Only got home at 1am. Mind you, I left home at 7.30am! that’s one entire freakin’ day! But who cares. Still Shiok. The exams are over and that’s all that matters. oh did I also mentioned? ppl jus keep coughing at me these days.. Even in the theaters I get ppl coughing at me from the back. Not forgetting Mr. EHUM (u know who u are). You ar. coughing at me for duno how many monkey donkey years already still target me to cough at >.< Oh no!
Friday, August 22, 2008 @ 8:22 PM
Oh no! I just realised i couldn't even spell the name of my favourite chocolate. haha. 
I got a lot more than just chocolates in the end.. 2 packs of chips, some sweets, biscuits and cup noodles. Nope. i'm not trying to get fat. haha. I was stocking up. Just as vehicles need fuel to run, gordon needs food to study. - Yupp - It's smack in the middle of my exams right now.. i'm having a day off today though. need some time to unwind.. all these studying is driving me crazy & at some point when i reach the threshold of insanity...... thats where the food comes in. =b  here i am studying & there's my mum watching TV. super suan can >.<  .. and i don't give a damn about findng the answer.  was fallin asleep.. drooling all over the book.. until i saw this! heh. 
Anyway, I know i haven't been online for days.. but don't worry, i'm still alive. I wouldn't die just yet.. ;) such inconspicousness. or am I thinking to much?
Friday, August 15, 2008 @ 8:35 AM
Such Inconspicousness as you set me thinking .. here's what I've to say .. time might take away everything for those who wait, seem too long for those who are in uncertainty, too short for the moments we rejoice, but for those who truely love, time is eternity. 080808
Friday, August 8, 2008 @ 11:45 AM
080808  Seems like I’m going through the same thing over again and I don't like it. How is it that the mind gets over simple consciousness? Why does the voice inside always get the first of me? I am smarter than that. I know it. time to come to my senses Newton!
Thursday, August 7, 2008 @ 11:42 PM
Newton! oh my.. wearing full formal wear to school two days in a row.......... but I like it. Makes me feel all grown up.. haha. Well, yesterday i had a presentation for my ecommerce project; which i screwed up pretty badly. An error surfaced midway(don't u jus hate it? when u're not at the real thing nothing goes wrong but it is always during the real presentation itself that something will!) I also didn't manage to answer all the questions he asked. DIE. haha but aiya... it's finally over I should be glad. Today? today I had to do a role play for my Business Communication test. My role was as a manager (thus the formal wear). I guess it went pretty well except for one slight hiccup where I momentarily forgot what to say. like shit lah. haha I hope the teacher will close one eye... anyway, i dun think acting is my cup of tea. maybe being a manager but definitely not acting wahaha! Was suppose to meet my brudders at 7pm but Business Communication endedat 4.30pm today! So early!! So I decided to head home first........... Knock out on the floor of my room once i reached home sia.. had a yummy nap (this time I was smart enough to not sleep chest down ;b ) thankfully i managed to wake up and get to Newton on time hoho.. I was the one who suggested going to Newton as I haven't been to the famous(or shall I say supposingly famous) newton circle hawker center for ages... all I can say is it changed ALOT. the entire place was seafood, seafood and more seafood!! I only spotted one chicken rice store and a fried chicken wing store and the rest were all seeeeeeeeeeeefood! so yup. at last we settled with seafood too. wahaha! Anyhow, I guess the food was average, the thing is we talked and laughed so much I barely remember what food we ate less what it taste like.. After our heartfelt oh ya oh ya one more thing. My heart skipped a beat while we were at Hereen just now! I think I am indeed dying :(((((((((((((  stupid der block my beautiful face. see, even rj looks dissapointed!  heh. penguin. looks like me sia.. wahaha. but at last my straw went right thru the head. sad. Gordon is dying
Tuesday, August 5, 2008 @ 10:51 PM
Gordon is You know, I might just be dying. Maybe I will end up like those people who die in their sleep or if I’m lucky I will get to live another 2-3 years and die (while running) in my NS years. touch wood touch wood Actually, as I’m typing this, it feels as though the tip of my ribcage is poking on to my lungs. But you don't have worry about this one though. Because I know how I got this today. The truth is, I just woke up from my wonderful nap & realised I have been sleeping chest/face down on my bed for the past 2 hours. wahaha.. yep. that explains the sqeeshy feeling I’m getting now. :/ Sigh.. Black gone wrong
Sunday, August 3, 2008 @ 3:33 AM
black gone wrong shoosh!! the Analog (Stussy) jeans i purchased online finally arrived BUT it turn out to be of the wrong colour! :(((((((( i ordered a grey one. sigh.. can't possibly do an exchange cause that will mean paying for the shipping cost all the way back to the states again.. lesson learned - buying clothes online is a big nono. cds and book might still do but those that require attention to colours and textures shall be avoided... oh & remember the black bag i got last week? I was just thinking.. If we were all to name our bags, i shall call mine chao da. wahaha It's currently 3.28am now.. doing what i call 'mass burning' which is a process i go through every now and then to back up all the nonsense i have downloaded onto cd/dvd. Trust me, it's a very very boring and lifeless task. I feel like a damn robot. open tray > insert disc > select content > burn > open tray > insert disc > select content > burn.. and again and again... been on it for the past few hours & i'm really starting to fall asleep. Anyway, 'mass burning' will be out of my dictionary as soon as i lay my hands on a couple of 1TB hard drives during the IT fair.. time to jio people to tag along with me! =)  why TRUE BLACK. suppose to be GREY yo.  that's chao da. he says hello~  hehe.. I wannaBe
Tuesday, July 29, 2008 @ 3:54 AM
I wannaBe I miss the freedom the constant mischief the wilder side which has longed been kept away those true friends that I should have treasured more & the days of being able to be just me for long lost are the times i feel truely secure.. Most blog i read have at least an entry or several about reminisce of the past. I guess this makes my first.. most people i know now don't know who gordon really is. Simply put, life in poly has been extremely restrictive and i'm not able to be truely myself. I really miss those glorious days with my brothers in white (u know who u are peeps!). wonder how long more i must wait before i can stop this lie anyway, the awesome song playing in the background is called flavors of life sung by Utada Hikaru. yes i like jap & no i'm not otaku. O.O
Monday, July 28, 2008 @ 1:38 AM
O.O managed to catch up with kenneth - whom i haven't met in ages - the other day. I think he has changed.. at the very least in height. never fail to feel like a dwarf around him. wonder when he will he stop growing vertically and start growing horizontally man. haha. anyway really glad to have finally met him.
property of...
Friday, July 25, 2008 @ 11:58 PM
property of... When out with my "fashion consultant" today as both of us had the same thing to get on our mind - a bag. It wasn't exactly something urgent but i just felt like spending. haha and spend we did. Ended up buying a yummy black bag for $129.90 from projectshop at Wisma. Initially I wanted to get a bag in the shades of brown but it seems like black is still my colour. Jared says so too.. i certainly hope he's right because from far i really think my new bag looks like a mass of charcoal. After spending the greater part of our fortune we settled our dinner at a nice budget resturant in Lucky Plaza before heading home.. YAY! new bag =)  took this pic over at paragon. don't EVER get a red car it will look like a toy car from above haha  don't worry. this is not the bag.. it's just the nice packaging it came in! lovely day.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008 @ 8:56 PM
lovely day. Number of days with a broken nail: 0 snapped it off. I realised the top half of my nail could snap off anytime, must as well do it myself. so no more broken nail just a big toe that looks really naked. lol my mum told me she dreamt of batman the night after we watched it. *told u my mum was cute* haven't attended my night lessons for the past 4 weeks. So i vowed to attend yesterday's by hook or by crook. Just when i'm all set on going, I found out that the night lesson is cancelled. oh ho.. i didnt ask for it. ;) ended up calling up hairy god (Jiu Siang) to play pool instead. wahaha today? Today i had no school but i still had to get my lazy ass to yck as i have to take my basic theory test. i failed. . . . . . ok. that was a bad attempt at lying. all of u probably already knew i was going to pass from the start right?! wahaha. Anyway, the last 10 qns got quite tricky but i guess i still managed to pull it off. weeee. Proceeded to Q for my PDL (provisional driving liscense) after the test. Waited a bleedy 2 hours man! thankfully there's this friendly malay woman (mother of 3) seating next to me and we had a nice chat. Imagine how boring that 2 hours could be!! Along with her, i also met a kind lady who worked there and another nice chap. You know, what happened today really made me think that friendly/good people are all around.. we jus have to see the world from a different light no injuries today. :) haha.. i hope he doesn't kill me for dressing him up. But i have to admit, it is a nice pose.  yep yep yep what a day.
Monday, July 21, 2008 @ 2:23 AM
what a day. Number of days with a broken nail: 6 my mum is cute. Like most typical mums (tell me if i'm wrong) she's the rather old fashioned, scream into phone type. ever trying to understand the new world order and occasionally attempting to catch our lingo. Yet, believe it or not, she likes batman. Ya that batman. the one kids like. u know, she really hates super heros and all that stuff but she’s totally in love with the dark crusader. Two years ago when she missed ‘batman begins’ in the theater, she shoved twenty bucks into my hands and 'demanded' that I go get the vcd for her. lawl. usually I need to beg her if I wanted a vcd or such but for batman, she does it volunteering-ly.
Click image to view uncensored version :D Sleeping on a cold floor
Friday, July 18, 2008 @ 11:14 PM
Sleeping on a cold floor Number of days with a broken nail: 3
after checking some stuff on my computer my body gave way. I slip down from my chair, hit the ground and there I was.. simply too tired. Unfortunately it wasn't a calm and fulfilling nap. I was to meet Ding Hui for dinner and knowing that I need to wake up at any moment’s notice, my sleep was filled with turbulence. Like an automatic alarm clock, I woke up every 30mins to check on my phone..... normally I would have got up and busy myself with something else but my body wouldn’t obey... not today. I was too shag and weak to get up Left home as soon as DH called. I cycled and guess what? I fucking fell. Only a mere 5 mins ride from home to Toa Payoh centre and I just had to fall. this time I injured my other big toe.. thankfully it's those sharp short pain that subsides after awhile. I'm telling u i'm cursed on bikes. It's a miracle!
Wednesday, July 16, 2008 @ 2:35 PM
It's a miracle! Number of days with a broken nail: 1 My laptop has rejuvenated itself this morning. miracle sia! I guess all my hair dying efforts paid off. wahaha Seriously, DELL rocks. like c'mon man how many laptops can survie a swim?! some can't even survive a spill over the keyboard. Mine was completely soak in water. actually, i am posting this entry over lunch at mosburger right now. heh. my first 'live' post made outside of home sweet home =)  some permanent screen damage ))))):  Damn right it is.
Spell of bad karma
@ 12:19 AM
Spell of bad karma We were suppose to present what we have done thus far as individuals during ECPJ lessons today. Obviously since my laptop is wrecked. I can't present shit. With that, I decided to head home instead of remaining in school handicapped without a laptop. Unbelievably just when I thought I was pretty cool to skip half of my reamining lessons, I found out Cheryl took a day off to Orchard. win. That leaves only Aloysius who was still in school. Cheryl and I tried convincing him to pon IPNET for kway chap (he owe us dinner for passing his driving test). We failed miserably. Alloy’s will to attend lessons can't be easily shaken. He's too guai (good boy) le. Hence we had no choice but to starve ourselves while waiting for Alloy’s lesson to end before meeting up. 9pm finally came and we met at Braddell mrt. I cycled there. After a long walk (I pushed my bike) we finally got to the Kway Chap store. but guess what? Like OMG. 9.15pm. hungry. tired. And shop close!! Left with no other options we headed to Toa Payoh centre.. I suggested eating at a famous ban mian store. But my two good friends were seriously overgrown snails. I wonder if they have been rendered slowpokes due to starvation or is it just me being too fast on my bike. Anyway, much thanks to their fantastic walking speed we arrived at 9.31pm. The store closes at 9.30pm. ah.. ah.. ah.. ah.. ah.. ah.. and SO, in the end we settled our dinner at Kopitam which opens 247. That wasn’t the end of the story. At least not for me. Just when I thought we were unlucky enough, I learned that I broke my toe nail on the way from Braddell to Toa Payoh. Bizarrely I only realised it that much later. I think I’m really cursed on bikes. I got into an accident once two years ago. Following that, most of my cycling trip ends up with me having one or more form of injuries. Perhaps I’m simply not fated to cycle. whether it hurts? Yea. a little. But I guess I’m waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay use to injuries by now. Plus, what’s physical pain compared emotional ones? This is where I always remind myself of the legendary quote from Nicolas Cage's World Trade Center movie - "pain is your friend. It tells you you're still alive." I so agree. Guess flip flops & sandals will be the in thing for the next couple of weeks :/
for the benefit of readers.. Ever seen a flooded bag?
Tuesday, July 15, 2008 @ 1:03 AM
Ever seen a flooded bag? I can almost swear fishes could swim in my bag eariler today. Yea. Thats right. My bag was flooded. My poor bag was accidentally hit by a swingling door in school which then got the cap of my water bottle lose. And of all days, my laptop had to be in the darn bag when this happens. In the first place i hardly bring my big fat laptop to school, even if i did i usually don't place it in my bag. talk about friggin' luck!! My lappy was completely drenched and my books were soaked to the last piece while my bag became... well, when I cleared the contents of my bag and looked into it, i discovered a pond. One just nice for tiny inhabitants of the sea! anyway, i can't even turn on my lappy now. poor lappy :( I'm going to wait for it to dry completely before i give it another try *prays* lesson learned: - Stay away from potentially dangerous swinging doors at all times - Crumpler is clearly not waterproof - Nalgene bottles are unpredictable - My bag makes a nice home for fishes I did gain one thing out off all this mess though. I finally got my bag washed
What hair Dryers are truely for - Drying wet laptops.
Just how am i suppose to study for my btt now!? Arigato o niisan
Monday, July 14, 2008 @ 2:56 AM
Arigato o niisan Haven't slept past 3am in a long long time but I did just that this morning. Slept only at 8am and woke up at noon. I would have slept on till some monkey donkey time but thanks to my living alarm clock I was forced out of bed at 12 - Thanks mum. What time do you guys usually sleep? I always feel terribly guilty if I slept really late because I’ve been telling myself for years to keep healthy and sleep before midnight. Sadly I never succeeded. I guess it's not a realistic goal considering my haphazard lifestyle Actually, I recently learned that a lack of sleep especially during the puberty years will affect the growth of one's height. Now I finally know why I am so short despite the 2 glasses of milk I drink every day :[ Shoots. It’s 2.39am already. What was my target again? Before midnight?? wahaha Anyways, my elder brother just got home from his first week as an OCS (officer) today. And for those of you that didn’t know, me and brother… we hardly ever talk to each other. In the past, when I was home he is always out and vice versa. It is no different now that he’s serving the army. We also had our fair share of differences, different rooms, different hobbies and many others things that set us apart. Today however, we managed to play a game or two of pool together - something we never did before. We caught up with each other and surprisingly we never stopped talking. I even shared with him some problems which was really bothering me recently. He didn’t give me much valuable advice. But I think he did enough just by genuinely listening and showing concern. I never knew I could be this open to him. For listening to craps & for the game of pool which u fully paid for, arigato o niisan. Welcome to the world of greencyanblue
Sunday, July 13, 2008 @ 4:25 AM
Welcome to the world of greencyanblue
It was a chilly morning.
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